tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-113677562011-04-22T02:28:30.194+07:00i FaCe My daRkEsT cHapTeR..my KniFe wiLL sLice your heart in half and send u straiGh to heLLaNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.comBlogger701100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1118391483159216832005-06-10T15:14:00.000+07:002005-06-10T15:18:03.160+07:00The First Cut Is The Deepest<br /><br />"i would have given you all of my heart<br />but there's someone who's torn it apartand<br />he's taken just all that i have<br />but if you want i'll try to love again<br />baby, i'll try to love again,<br />but i know...the first cut is the deepest<br />baby i knowthe first cut is the deepest<br />but when it comes to bein' lucky,<br /> he's cursed<br />when it comes to lovin' me,<br /><br /> he's worst...i still want you by my side<br />just to help me dry the tears that i've cried<br />and i'm sure gonna give you a try<br />if you want i'll try to love again, (try)baby, i'll try to love again,<br /> but i know...OOHHH,the first cut is the deepest<br />baby i knowthe first cut is the deepest<br />but when it comes to bein' lucky,<br />he's cursed<br />but when it comes to lovin' me,<br /> he's worst...i still want you by my side<br />just to help me dry the tears that i've cried<br />but i'm sure gonna give you a try<br />cuz if you want i'll try to love again<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111839148315921683?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1118391274518628472005-06-10T13:12:00.000+07:002005-06-10T15:14:34.523+07:00Close your eyes, make a wish And blow out the candlelight<br />For tonight is just your night We're gonna celebrate,<br />all thru the night Pour the wine, light the fire<br />Girl your wish is my command<br /> I submit to your demands I'll do anything, girl you need only ask<br /><br />Chorus:<br /> I'll make love to you<br />Like you want me to And I'll hold you tight<br />Baby all through the night<br />I'll make love to you When you want me to<br />And I will not let go Till you tell me to Girl relax,<br />let's go slow I ain't got nowhere to go<br />I'm just gonna concentrate on you Girl are you ready,<br />it's gonna be a long night T<br />hrow your clothes on the floor I'm gonna take my clothes off too<br />I made plans to be with you Girl whatever you ask me you know I'll do<br /><br />Chorus<br />Baby tonight is your night And I will do you right Just make a wish on your night Anything that you ask I will give you the love of your life<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111839127451862847?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1118383925886140592005-06-10T13:07:00.000+07:002005-06-10T13:12:05.893+07:00I found the pieces in my hand They were always there<br />It just took some time to understand<br />You gave me words I just can't say<br /><br />So if nothing else I'll hold on while you drift away<br />Cause everything you wanted me to hide Is everything that makes me feel alive<br />Cities grow Rivers flow Where you are,<br />I'll never know But I'm still here<br />If you were right and I was wrong Why are you the one that's gone<br />I'm still here Still here Seeing the ashes in my heart<br />The smile the widest When I cry inside and my insides blow apart<br />I tried to wear another face Just to make you proud<br />Just to make you put me in my place<br />But everything you wanted to take from me Is everything that I could never be<br />Cities grow Rivers flow Where you are, I'll never know But I'm still here<br /><br />If you were right and I was wrong<br />Why are you the one that's gone<br />I'm still here Maybe tonight It's gonna be alright<br />I will get better Maybe today It's gonna be okay<br />I will remember I held the pieces of my soul I was shattered<br />and I wanted you to come and make me whole<br />When I saw you yesterday But you didn't noticed<br />And you just walked away Cause everything you wanted me to hide<br />Is everything that makes me feel alive<br /><br />Cities grow Rivers flow Where you are,<br />I'll never know But I'm still here If you were right and I was wrong<br />Why are you the one who's gone And I'm still here<br />The lights go out, the bridges burn<br />Once you're gone, you can't return I'm still here Remember how you use to say<br />I'd be the one to runaway<br />But I'm still here......<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111838392588614059?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1118140917242761422005-06-07T17:17:00.000+07:002005-06-07T17:41:57.246+07:00blkangan ini..gak tau napa dha lagi...syuka ngerasa boriiiing bnet..:( hikz<br />ga da mood bwad ngapa2in...<br />bwad chating...bwad hunting :D,bwad browsing..<br />aagghh..pokokNya dha gi ga mood bwad ngapa2in...<br />i wish..all would be over as soon as possible...<br />gak pernah ngebayangin klo 2 bulan itu...trasa lamaa bnet klo ditungguin..<br /><br />hUhu..dHa dah aNeeN Bnet ma mama..<br />aneen ma bapak yg syukaNya ngomel2 ga jls diblkg :D<br />ma widhie..yg ktNya dah punya pacar baru..<br />ma tommy yg byasanya bobo ma dha..tp syuka gebukin perut dha klo gi marah..trus nangis klo kalah..:D hueheueheu<br />ma yogha...yg kata mama dah gede dan suka maen2 telpon2nan sendiri smbil mggl2 dha..<br />hikz...<br />ma aris...yg udah janji mo ngajakin dha ke pengandaran lagih...klo dha dah balik...<br />ma mardi..yg hobinya nyaci maki dha..ga ada bosennya..HuHuhu<br />ma yHayhat...kaka sepupu dha yg plg cakep seduniya...:p<br />ma iiN...my bloved niece plg ksayangannya dha...plg tercinta...plg lutju...yg syukanya niru2 inuL<br />hehehehehe...syuka ngikut2 dha kmna2,ga ada bosennya..<br />ma nia adhenya aris..<br />ma miftahul janah,wiwin,siti,aan,irpan,eko,sepul,arif,raRa,riza,tika,huhuhu sapa lagih yak??<br />ma mas utik...sepupu dha yg plg meratiin dha..dr kecil mpe dewasa<br />ma tutur...ma wajam,wakarno..yg syg bnet ma dha...<br />kakiNe,niNine,bapaTuwa...kanG daRyO,Mba iRoH,mas Pa'i,mBa TiTi,lik maRgo,Lik TaR,LIk saKim,Lik daiMah,wa Ono,wa MaR..taTi...yg ktNya dah ngasih dha keponakan baru..<br />hikz..hikz...i mizz them aLL!!:((<br /><br />anen ma icha....emi..intan...yg dulu suka jalan2 muter2 kampung boncengan ma trisno jg :(<br />ma yanto...sikustiono,akso,tanto,mame..,nono,purwanto,OoM napin yg dulu suka dha pgl2 "narapidana nasioanal"hueheueheue<br /><br />anen ma jenny..my first BF di kampoonG..<br />yg skrg..entahlah....mkin tidak karuwan tingkah bejatnya....yg dulu...plg syayang ma dha..<br />plg perhatian ma dha..plg lmbut ma dha...ngajarin dha bwad first kisses...:D<br />ngajarin dha bwad setia..bwad sabar..nunggu...<br />bwad jd org yg wise...dan bwad jd pacar yg dewasa...dlm ngadepin kondisi pacaran kita waktu itu....<br />dan skrg..18Oo udah brubah jd...uncontroL???yeah maybe..n i dunno why...:(<br />meski skrg msh jd temen..tp...nemu dia yg keknya bukan jenny yg pernah dha knal dulu...<br />hOhoHo..feel..uncomfort bwad dha..<br />god..may he find the way...to be rite again...amieeen..<br /><br />ugh....<br />2 bln....its about..60 days again...<br />why so looooong...:((<br /><br />i do really mizz them all<br /><br />without wax<br /><br />-dha-<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111814091724276142?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1118309439763458122005-06-06T16:28:00.000+07:002005-06-09T16:30:39.766+07:00Dear DiaryDear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keepthem Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets I know you'll keep them,<br /> and this is what I'vedone I've been a bad, bad girl for so long I don't know how to change what went wrong Daddy's little girl when he went away What did it teach me? That love leaves<br /><br />Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keepthem Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets I know you'll keep them, and this is what I'vedone<br />I've been down every road you could go I made some bad choices as you know Seems I have the whole world cradled in my hands But its just like me not to understand<br /><br />Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keepthem Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets I've been a bad, bad girl<br />I learned my lessons I turned myself around I've got a guardian angel tattooed on my shoulder<br />She's been watching over me<br /><br />Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keepthem Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets I've been a bad, bad girl<br />Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keepthem Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets I've been a bad, bad girl<br /><br />I've been a bad, bad girl....<br /><br /><strong><em>pink lyrics..dear diary</em></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111830943976345812?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1117814787181974892005-06-03T23:01:00.000+07:002005-06-03T23:06:27.183+07:00Each night I go to bed, I say ma prayers and i bow ma head. Sunkn deep in love's lust, i think i might just, wait until I see ur face or wait for all love's embrace.<br />I dream of u and i cant contain i feel u but i cant touch i want to grab u but i cant reach i want u but i cant have u if this be ma dreams why cant i hold u???<br /><br /> I thought I loved you, I thought you loved me too. I've dreamt of you each night, And all the time was true.<br />I remember when you asked me, When you and I became we. I thought we were so perfect, But I should have known we could never be.<br />I don't know why I still love you, I ask myself each day through. How could I be so stupid? But what was I to do.<br />I believed every word you said, Every lie that you spread. Why did you do it know when you knew it would effect me, Why did you do it if you knew I would be dead? <br /><br />-DhA-<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111781478718197489?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1117814458598581422005-06-03T22:34:00.000+07:002005-06-03T23:00:58.603+07:00That boy I once loved watches,<br /> he watches me cry in pain.<br /><br />He watches me scream his name,<br /> he watches me wherever I go.<br /><br />He watches me belittle myself,<br />he watches me every sec.<br /><br />He watches me cry over him,<br /> he watches me when he is with her.<br /><br />He knows i hate her,<br />but their still together.<br /><br />He know how i feel about him,<br /> he knows i still love him.<br /><br />He stares at me like i am crazy,<br />deep inside i know he still loves me. (is that true???)<br /><br />He knows i live in darkness without him,<br />he knows i cut myself.<br /><br />He knows i will always love<br />no matter what gurl he is with<br /><br />but every now and then you watch me cry<br />because i am not with you.....<br /><br />-DhA-<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111781445859858142?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110512601772707412005-05-24T14:00:00.000+07:002005-05-24T13:51:02.290+07:00<div align="center"><a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/640/8441196665553l.jpg"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-TOP: #000000 1px solid; MARGIN: 2px; BORDER-LEFT: #000000 1px solid; WIDTH: 396px; BORDER-BOTTOM: #000000 1px solid; HEIGHT: 264px" height="240" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/320/8441196665553l.jpg" width="468" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://www.hello.com/" target="ext"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: 0px; PADDING-RIGHT: 0px; BORDER-TOP: 0px; PADDING-LEFT: 0px; BACKGROUND: none transparent scroll repeat 0% 0%; PADDING-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; PADDING-TOP: 0px; BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px" alt="Posted by Hello" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif" align="absMiddle" border="0" /></em></strong></span></a><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>angeLswitHbrokeNwings..tHats Me:( </em></strong></span><a href="http://www.hello.com/" target="ext"></a></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>If I could be with you</em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>I would dedicate my time</em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>To keeping you happy and loved </em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>So that your heart would beat with mine</em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em></em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>I feel alone without your touch</em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>my wings just feel broken and diseapears..</em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>My heart can beat no more </em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>My touch is cold</em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>,my knees are weak</em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em></em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>I fear what life has in store Alone </em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>I feel in this world so cold </em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>But the feelings I express are true</em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>So I ask you again, </em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>for the hundreth time </em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>If I could be with you</em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>....again....</em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em></em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em></em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>repair my wings..baby..</em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>without wax</em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em></em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em></em></strong></span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#3366ff;"><strong><em>idha</em></strong></span> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111051260177270741?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1116918844711862472005-05-24T13:51:00.000+07:002005-05-24T14:14:04.716+07:00i doNt kNow..how to take my self..rite now..<br />im sick with what i feel...<br />im sick..with...my feelin..<br />i really wish..i could accept..that im not gut enough for him...<br />yeah..like he said to me...samtime we need to forget our dreams.....<br />but is thiz fair for me...??<br />n then...im feel shame with my self...<br />i dun have any precedence to ask him to play fair..bot my feelin....bot..what we'd share when we still 2gthr...<br />i dont have any idea..to take my self..in the rite place..<br />all seems wrong..<br /><br />dha pgn berontak...pengen..bilang..ga adil bgt apa yg udah dia lakuin ma dha..<br />tp dha ngerasa ga punya cukup hak bwad bilang kek gini ma diya..<br />be2 qita udah share byk hal....<br />i though....smuanya bakal ga kek gini...<br /><br />dha binun musti gimana mentuin sikap dha ma diya...<br />dha bener2 broke into pieces..<br />dha ga penen dendam ma diya...he ever became my true fren...<br />one upon a time...<br />nemenin dha..saat dha lg butuh temen...ndegerin dha saat dha lg penen cerita..lift me up...<br />dr keterpurukan2nya dha,mbuat dha py passion lg bwad syg ma org sepenuh hati<br />mbuwat dha ketawa...mbuat idup dha yg sebelumnya bnr2..complicated..jd bae lg..dgn perhatian2..dan sygnya dia ma dha..<syg>:(<br /><br />dha penen jd temen dia lg kek dulu...kyk yg dia minta ma dha..kmren..<br />but..still..saat ini dha ngerasa bnr2 lom bs nerima kenyataan klo dha disakiti lagi....<br />so hurt...when u love samwan..but then..knowin that he never love me...<br />seakan2 cuma mbuwat qita sbg pengisi kekosongan aja???<br />give me dreams...n then...burn all till we feel we are in da hell..<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111691884471186247?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1116917318355196492005-05-24T13:41:00.000+07:002005-05-24T13:48:38.360+07:00Staring in the mirror as I<br />Start to carefully contemplate<br />Just really how deep is this thing I have for you<br />It's wearing on my heart<br />And from the start you know I tried, steadily denied<br />Friendship turn to love<br />I know you probably think that I'm so strange -<br />Stuttering on every word when you look my way, why?And maybe it's all in my mind<br />But when we hugged goodbye I had butterflies<br />I just died<br />I just died in your arms tonight<br />Don't want nobody to bring me back to life I just died in your arms I just died in your arms tonight, tonight<br />Your finger hushed my lips<br />As I tried to explain maybe why you and I should hide from such a love affair<br />My friends think that I'm so insane<br />To fight this feeling<br />But my life's at stakeYour embrace, thoughts won't erase<br />Every now a minute of the day I wait and hope and pray<br />That you might stay<br />And now you're moving so closely<br />Killing me so softly, so softly<br />I just died<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111691731835519649?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1116056948127316532005-05-14T14:34:00.000+07:002005-05-14T14:49:08.136+07:00<strong><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#cc6600;">gw boring....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">have No oNe here to company me..:(</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">thiz is a boring weekend..,i guess!!</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">dha kangen sama mama....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">oh gosh..never imagine that..4 month .....can be so long like thiz..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">i really..really missing her much...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">last time..i called her...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">i just wanna said..that i do really missin' her much...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">but then..i heard she cried...spechless cant say aniting...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">that is a very2 touchy moment..yupz..!</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;"> my mom owes like that...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">cried..cried..n cried..evtime...i called her or evtime...i leave her..!</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">i knew how much she loved me...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">i remember..when i was still @ home..my mom cried 4 me..evrinite 4 about one month be4 im gone.....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">im so saad...!!i never wanted she lost her tears 4 a fu**** daughter like me....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">but she'd done!!!</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">i dont know how to describes thiz..but i do really missin' her much...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">she's the best mom i ever had!!!!in thiz universe!!!</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">i love her much......</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">i really need her rite now.....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">i want she hold me.......</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">mom..see now im feel so lonely.......</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">did u think bout me too rite now mom???</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">i love u....i noe iam a bad daughter...but...i love u so much....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">how proud my self can be the part of ur life...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">may god bless u...whereever u r rite now...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">i love u so much mom...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">i miss you so much..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">i need you so much mom...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">:((</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#cc6600;">-dha-</span></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111605694812731653?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1115438277338337572005-05-07T10:41:00.000+07:002005-05-07T10:57:57.386+07:00<strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">i dunno what to write...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">i just didnt have any idea to write..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">but...i guess i want to write samting..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">but dunno how to start..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">its the new begining of my life..iwish...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">i had a lovely boyfren...i wish...he would my last love journey..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">its hard 4 me to believing 2 samwan...since..so many things happen to me in thiz recent month..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">but..i do really want to try to believe in samwan..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">we decided to be a lover...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">yupz...dunno how to describes...he just make me better in all de way..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">he gave me light when i think my life just full of darkness</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">i love evri inch of him...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">how he treats me....i just love the way he try to loves me...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">im feel so grateful when he said that he want to love me......n want i love him also..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">when he said that he need me......missing me....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">no one said thiz be4...yeah...no one said that they need me...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">though...maybe they need me...but heard from him...that he need me..its just..feel like...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">oh gosh.....gimme back my confidenity...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">yupz...there is..still samwan that need me....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">im try to close all my past book...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">try to start the new beginning of my life with him...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">i know...its not easy..to keep thiz feeling...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">but ill try...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">i just wanna give my feeling to samwan...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">iwant to be a good lover for samwan...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">i want to love samwan with my heart...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">i want...missing samwan much...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">i want to feel...love...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">i just try to be loved..n hopefully one day i would be loved..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">dear my baby...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">i know..i cant show u how much i loved u rite now...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">but...if u want to believe..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">i really want to love u..with evting iam...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">let me love u bebi...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">let me always be in your heart...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">i dont have a rite word to say...how u means to me...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">but being with u..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">just the best things i have in thiz time</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">thx 4 all that u've done to me....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">just one more step...n i promise i would comes next ur door..give evriting that u need...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">i love ya my dear...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;"></span></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111543827733833757?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1115266689628443802005-05-05T11:12:00.000+07:002005-05-05T11:18:09.633+07:00""True"<br /><br />I wont talk<br />I wont breathe<br />I wont move till you finally see<br />That you belong with me<br /><br />You might think<br />I dont look<br />But deep inside<br />In the corner of my mind<br />Im attached to you<br />Im weak<br />Its true<br />Cuz im afraid to know<br /> the answer<br />Do you want me too?Cuz my heart keeps falling faster<br />I've waited all my life<br />To cross this line<br />To the only thing thats true<br />So I will not hide<br />Its time to try<br />Anything to be with you<br />All my life I've waited<br />This is true<br />You dont know what you do<br />\Everytime you walk into the room<br />Im afraid to mov<br />eIm weak<br />Its true<br />Im just scared to know the ending<br /> Do you see me too?<br />Do you even know u met me<br />?I've waited all my life to cross this line<br />To the only thing thats true<br />So I will not hid<br />eIts time to try anything to be with you<br />All my life I've waited<br />This is true<br />I know when I go<br /> ill be on my way to you<br />The way thats true<br />I've waited all my life to cross this line<br />To the only thing thats true<br />So I will not hid<br />eIts time to try anything to be with you<br />All my life I've waited<br /><br />ryan cabrera...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111526668962844380?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1114836771473790682005-04-30T11:41:00.000+07:002005-04-30T11:52:51.480+07:00<div align="justify"><span style="color:#ff6600;"><br /><br /><span style="font-family:verdana;"><em>Kutak mengerti maksudmu</em></span></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Tak paham apa keinginanmu</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Selalu ada celah diantar kita</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Mungkin aku bukan yg terbaik </em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em></em></span> </div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Kugoreskan luka dihatimu</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Kubasahi tanah ini dengan air matamu</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Selalu berulang kau merasa tersakiti</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Mungkin aku bukan yg terbaik</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em></em></span> </div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Disaat kupasrahkan semua padamu</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Kurelakan kau pergi jauh dari hadapan</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>kuKau mencari arti kebebasan sebenarnya</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Mungkin aku bukan yg terbaik</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em></em></span> </div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Disaat kau terluka disana ku hanya diam</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Sesaat semua kau rasakan gelap</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Ku tak berkata sepatah katapun menghiburmu</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Mungkin aku bukan yg terbaik</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em></em></span> </div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Sesaat terbesit kerinduan akan dirimu</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Namun ku hanya bisa pendam dalam dalam</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Menatapmu tak sanggup ku berkata apapun</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Mungkin aku bukan yg terbaik</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em></em></span> </div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Kuingat kenangan kita saat bersamaKu </em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>menyesal semua harus berlalu</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Diriku kini hanya sebuah benda tak bernyawa</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Mungkin aku bukan yg terbaik</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Semakin jauh dirimu meninggalkan diri ini</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Ada saat kuterkenang akan dirimu</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Seorang yg sangat kusayangi</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Mungkin aku bukan yg terbaik</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em></em></span> </div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Kutermenung disudut kamar ini</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Memandang hampa seakan mati</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#ff6600;"><em>Tak tau harus berbuat apa</em></span></div><div align="justify"><span style="font-family:verdana;"><em><span style="color:#ff6600;">Mungkin aku bukan yg terbaik untukmu slamanya</span>..........</em></span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111483677147379068?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1114492769500756652005-04-26T17:12:00.000+07:002005-04-28T07:03:34.376+07:00<strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;">Tertegun ku memandangmu</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;">Saat kau tinggalkanku .. menangis</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;">Bodohnya ku mengharapmu</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;">Jelas sudah tak kau pedulikan cintaku</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;">Mestinya telah kusadari</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;">Betapa perih cinta tanpa balasmu</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;">Harusnya tak ku paksakan</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;">Bila akhirnya kan melukaiku</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;">Mungkin ku tak akan bisa jadikan dirimu kekasih</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;">Yang seutuhnya mencintaiku</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;">Namun kurelakan diri</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;">Jika hanya setengah hati</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;">Kau sejukkan jiwa ini</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;">Ku hanya terus berharap Satu hari kau mampu .. sadari </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;">Tiada yang pernah mengerti </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#ff0000;">Sepertiku setulus hati mencintaimu</span></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111449276950075665?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1114491812322247322005-04-26T15:39:00.000+07:002005-04-26T12:05:58.010+07:00<span style="font-size:130%;">just now....<br />i talk 2 him....<br />dha ga kuat nahan rasa penasaran dha beberapa hari ini.......<br />dha cuma pngen tau what really happen....<br />apa dha punya salah? apa dha do samting that he dislike?<br />apa dha diam2 mbuwad dia uncomfortable??<br />dha cuma pngen tau...satu aja "the reason"<br />why..dha ngerasa stranger bgt dgn smua hal tentang dia....beberapa hari belakangan ini...<br />dha ngerasa nggak nyaman dgn keadaan yg skrg.....<br />thats why..dha berkali2 nyoba call dia meski dha tau..dan bener2 ngerasa klo sikap dia..tadi bener2 dingin bgt<br />seakan2 males bgt bwt dengerin dha ngomong......<br />dengerin nada ngomong dia aja..dha ngerasa jd gak enak ati.......<br />makin pnsrn ...ada apa denganmu?????????<br />dha cuma pngen atu aja alasan..kenapa gini????<br />ada apaa???<br />plg gak....dha need 2 know...n then..dha bisa ngaca....dha bs tau..apa letak ketimpangan dlam hubungan kita skrg...<br />dan siapa tau..dha bisa ngelurusin...dan mbuat smuanya jd terasa nyaman.....<br />NYAMAN!!paling ga...nyaman buat diri dha...untuk saat ini....<br />dha cuma ngerasa smuanya nga</span><a href="http://searchmiracle.com/text/search.php?qq=MBA" target="_blank"><span style="font-size:130%;">mba</span></a><span style="font-size:130%;">ng.....<br />dan apa salah..klo dha pngen tau apa yg sebenernya terjadi???<br />dia bilang..its not the rite time.....<br />fine....its work time...<br />but sampai kapan jie...mbuwad dha jd trs ngers nga</span><a href="http://searchmiracle.com/text/search.php?qq=MBA" target="_blank"><span style="font-size:130%;">mba</span></a><span style="font-size:130%;">ng gini??????<br />dha nunggu jie ngomong dr smggu yg lalu...<br />then jie cuma ninggalin sebait kata2 ..yg menurut dha....<br />itu...artinya ga nyaman bgt bwt hub. kita.........<br /><br />then....jie bilang jie ga suka dipaksa....<br />dha tau dha udah over bgt pngen tau.....<br />dan dha emang lagi bener2 pn gen tau..saat itu....<br /><br />then..jie...make nada tinggi buat ngomong ma dha....<br />dha sedih bgt....ga tau musti gimana njelasin rasa sedihnya dha...<br />dha..cuma pngen tau kenapa...dan jie....seakan2 ngomong dgn nada setinggi itu..seakan2 dha udah bener2 bikin jie eneg...<br />ya mgk dha ngenegin....apa salah..pngen tau??????????<br />then jie bilang...dha musti bisa nempatin diri...<br />kantor..ya kantor..<br />pribadi ya..pribadi....<dgn><br />jie mgk bisa....<br />tapi dha???<br />dha nyoba jie.....nyoba misahin urusan kerjaan ma kerjaan pribadi ma pribadi....<br />tp gimana dha bisa comfort..sedangkan perasaan dha aja seakan2 lagi kena disaster gini?????<br />dha emang childish....ga sedewasa jie...dlm mecahin smua yg dtg diidup jie...<br />yeah..thats..me....<br />jie pngen dha ngertiin sikap jie.....yg skrg.....<br />tapi jie sndiri ga nyoba ngertiin perasaan dha.....<br />is that fair??<br /><br />today...adl first month..we've been together....<br />dha kira smuanya akan jln nyaman spt yg dha selalu bygkan..<br /><br />ga tau musti gimana ngungkapin sakit atinya dha tentang sikap jie tadi.....<br /><br />dha cuma pngen tau....ada apa???<br />then smuanya malah makin mbuat dha jd makin ga nyaman......<br /><br />jikalaupun..jie...udah ngerasa klo dha...bukan spt apa yg jie arepin...<br />jika jie udah ngerasa boring dgn smua kechildishan dha...<br />dgn smua sikap memaksa dha..selama ini..<br />dgn smua sikap dha yg selalu nuntut jie untuk selalu ada untuk dha...<br />dgn smua...apa yg lagi kita be2 jalani skrg...<br />just tell me....<br />jangan mbuat dha nga</span><a href="http://searchmiracle.com/text/search.php?qq=MBA" target="_blank"><span style="font-size:130%;">mba</span></a><span style="font-size:130%;">ng gini...<br />dha mungkin lbh bisa nerima klo jie jujur..tentang apa yg jie rasa ma dha..skrg...<br />drpd jie ngindar....nyoba njauhin dha kyak gini.....<br />seakan2 jie ga peduli bgt..akan perasaan dha...<br /><br />ingatkah jie...<br />disana ada satu hati jugha yg peduli ama jie...<br />ada satu hati yg jugha perlu jie jaga perasaannya..<br />krn gimanapun....from de first time....<br />kita udah py komitment buat slg berbagi...<br /><br />maapin dha..klo dha terlalu over buat nyingkapi smua yg sedang kita jalani lebih kurang satu bulan ini...<br />maapin dha klo dha terlalu serius tentang hubungan kita yg skrg...<br />maapin dha..klo dha terarlalu ngantungin mimpi2 dha sama jie...skrg<br />maapin dha..klo mgk dha sudah terlalu berharap byk tentang kita...<br />maapin dha..klo udah terlalu sayang ma jie selama ini...<br />maapin dha..klo mgk dha punya salah yg dha ga pernah sadari selama ini...<br /><br /><br />i just wish...<br />oneday...jie bakal ngerti....klo smuanya..<br />yg dha lakuin tadi..yg mungkin menurut jie..cuma ganggu jie...<br />cuma bikin jie eneg...cuma bikin jie jd naik darah....<br />bikin jie kesel dan marah..sampai ngomong dgn nada setinggi itu tadi...<br />smuanya krn dha ..sayang sama jie...<br /><br /><br />skrg..smuanya terserah jie....</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111449181232224732?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1114388871490596852005-04-26T14:44:00.000+07:002005-04-26T12:04:38.650+07:00<span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dearest jie.......</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">masih terngiang2 di benak dha tentang smua kata2 yg jie tulis bwad dha...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dha nyoba nebak apa maksud dr smuanya...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">but....selalu...smua yg ada hanya..mbuat dha makin ga bisa ...buat nerima smua yg ada.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">mungkin dha yg salah....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">selalu mandang smua yg datang di idup dha...dengan pandangan seserius itu...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">sejak kali pertama dha knal ma jie...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">sejak kali pertama jie..jd bag.idup dha...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">sejak kali pertama jie...jd teman dha dlm berbagi...smua hal yg dulu datang ma dha..</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">sejak kali pertama qt biasa saling share..tentang mslh qt masing2....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dha selalu kagum ama jie.....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dha masih ingat smua hal yg dulu pernah qita bagi...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">tentang cerita jie...tentang yg dulu itu...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">tentang apa yg dha ceritain ma jie..tentang dha pd waktu dha terpuruk itu....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">yeAH....sejak saat itu..dha tau ada samting didiri jie...yg bisa mbuwat dha jatuh ma jie....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dan dha udah bener2 jatuh.</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">baru sebulan jie.....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">cuma sebulan.....dan dha bisa ngerasa klo dha emang udah jatuh ma jie....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">jie...itu punya arti bgt diidup dha....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">sejak jie...nawarin diri bwad jd bag. idup dha malam itu...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dha bener2 nyerahin diri dha buat jie...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dha percaya ama jie....saat jie bilang klo jie udah bilang sayang ma org...maka jie cuma akan sayang ma dia..</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dan apa jie percaya ma dha saat dha bilang klo dha bilang sayang ma org..maka dha akan cuma syg ma dia...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dan yeah..i do...dha bener2 nyerahin sayang dha ama jie....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">hangatnya smua sikap jie ma dha...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">smua perhatian2 jie...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">smua pandangan jie...tentang hidup....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">smua pandangan jie..tentang arti cinta...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">smua pandangan jie..tentang masa depan jie....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">smuanya mbuwat dha cuma makin sayang ma jie....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">mbuwat dha ngerasa...klo jie...adl org yg dha cari sepanjang idup dha.....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dan dha...again...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">terus jatuh sama jie.....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dha ga pengen ngingkarin smua yg dha rasa...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dha selalu nyoba buat nyerahin smua perasaan dha...buat org yg mau nyoba buat sayang ma dha..</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">walo dha mungkin ga tau pasti..gimana dia.....bagaimana dia...seperti apa dia......</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dan jie..udah nyoba buat sayang ma dha....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">maka smua perasaan yg ada di dlam diri dha....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">adl milik jie....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">is that wrong????</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dha mungkin ga sesempurna apa yg ada dlm impian jie...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dha mungkin cuma org biasa..yg cuma bermimpi buat punya seorg pangeran impian sesempurna jie....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dha cuma punya cinta....yg tulus bgt pengen dha bagi dgn jie....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">last but not least.....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dha syg ma jie....ga bosen dha bilang ini ma jie....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dha harap..jie mau menetap ...berbagi sekeping hati yg akan jie bawa itu.....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">bersama merajut mimpi.....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">jikalaupun jie...melaut lagi.....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">dermaga ini.....akan selalu ada untuk tempat berlabuh perahu hidup jie....</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">selalu ada...menunggu jie......untuk berlabuh....selamanya...</span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;">D.H.A S.A.Y.A.N.G J.I.E........</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111438887149059685?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1114268751181501022005-04-23T21:52:00.000+07:002005-04-23T22:05:51.183+07:00<div align="center"><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">Sekedar Menitipkan Sekeping hati Agar aku bisa berbagi Bukan bersama merajut mimpiKutahu kamu memiliki mimpi sendiri Biarlah aku Singgah sejenak tanpa harus menetap.....berlabuh melepas jangkar lelah di dermaga lapangmu yang kini sudah semakin sesak saatnya aku melaut lagi mengarungi samudera tanpa tepi perahu nasibku sudah menunggu Jikapun aku lenyap digulung ombak hidupdisanalah sekeping hati aku pendam abadi... bersama takdirku</span></em> </div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center"> </div><div align="left">gw terteguN nerima kata2 ini dari adjie....</div><div align="left">spechless...</div><div align="left">nyoba baca berulang2 ribuan kali...dan tetap saja gw ga bisa ngerti... atopun nerka </div><div align="left">apa maksud dr smua yg dia tulis itu...</div><div align="left">ga tau napa..terasa ada yg hilang dr hati gw...saat nyoba nyusun kata itu satu persatu dalam benak gw...</div><div align="left">is that farewell for me jie???</div><div align="left">is that mean...you...really..really..want to leave me cold here jie..???</div><div align="left">still...i cant read you anyway...</div><div align="left">jie..ilang dr dha berhari2....krn jie busy...nyiapin smua urusan jie...krn mingu depan jie dah musti pindah ke pontianak...selama 2 taon...</div><div align="left">yeah..dha nyoba ngertiin hal ini....</div><div align="left">kyak yg jie bilang ma dha seminggu yg lalu.....</div><div align="left">smuanya krn demi kita juga......so..i try to understand..</div><div align="left">eventhough...dha ga bisa ngingkarin ati dha..klo dha..bener2 tersiksa...ga bisa tau gimana </div><div align="left">kabar jie..skrg...fine kah?sehatkah?</div><div align="left">dan jie...tiba2 cuma ninggalin pesen itu..di mailbox dha...tanpa bilang kata2 laen yg paling ga bisa nyejukin ati dha...</div><div align="left">terbersit beribu2 tanda tanya dlm benak dha jie.....</div><div align="left">dan again...dha ga bisa nemu password bwad...masuk untuk nemuin jawaban2 dr smuanya itu....</div><div align="left"> </div><div align="left"> </div><div align="left"> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111426875118150102?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1116055866442125742005-04-08T14:30:00.000+07:002005-05-14T14:31:06.443+07:00MET ULTAH SAYANGNNYA JIE...!!!AKU SAYANGKAMUMungkin jie ga bisa kasi Hadiah buat dha, tapi jie punya cinta dan kasih sayang yang bisa jie berikan sama dha, semoga itu bisa menjadi kado terindah buat dha di hari ulang tahun dha....<br /><br /><a class="FMenuLinks" onmouseout="this.className='FMenuLinks';" href="mailto:ADJIE">Kut'rima suratmu, t'lah kubaca, dan aku mengertiBetapa merindunya dirimu, akan hadirnya dirikudi dalam hari-harimu, bersama lagiKau bertanya padaku, kapan aku, akan kembali lagiKatamu kau tak kuasa, menahan gejolak di dalam dadayang membara menahan rasa, pertemuan kita nantiSaat kau ada disisikuSemua kata rindumu semakin membuatku, tak berdayamenahan rasa ingin jumpaPercayalah padaku akupun rindu kamuKu akan pulang ... melepas semuakerinduan, yang terpendamKau tuliskan padaku, kata cinta, yang manis dalam suratmuKau katakan padaku, saat ini, ku ingin hangat pelukmudan belai lembut kasihmu, takkan kulupa s'lamanyaSaat bersama dirimuJangan katakan cinta, menambah beban rasaSudah simpan saja sedihmu itu, ku akan datang</a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111605586644212574?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1112675897262414412005-04-05T18:44:00.000+07:002005-04-05T11:38:17.266+07:00<strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;">Clock Struck Midnight</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;"> Awaiting the tide to ebb and the last of the moon to wane all fading light. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;">While all smiles die, </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;">a grimace remains awaiting darkeness to appr</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;">All of my dreams they are evolving changing into shattering screams </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;">razors dragged to slice for a temperary relief from reality </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;">with pain knifes set to dice</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;"> White clothe stained from her bloody smears ove</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;"> The pain is everwhelming,</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;"> Clouding a confused mind Smothering</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;"> Taking n all life left in a young soul. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;">breath sucked from within a bottomless hole covered with abuse, </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;">suxual harrassment kills her, </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;">tearing limb from limb,</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;"> splattering blood and piercing deep into your consious with her drowning screams. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:times new roman;">oach Breath is held broken by a sharp sigh.....</span></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111267589726241441?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1112676545640802592005-04-05T18:20:00.000+07:002005-04-05T11:49:05.640+07:00At home right now doing nothing. Should be doing some type how but don't feel like it.<br /> My break turned into an hour and a half, so I have to get bussy again. Lots of things on my mind today. One week left of this quarter, and entill spring break. Can't wait! Also thinking alot about someone, and wondering why hes all I can think about. Gosh, can't wait to see him! About 1 weeks left entill I do<br />. Getting nervis, excited, and hoping that everything will be alright.yeah...we have been together for about one week...<br />but i do really fall into him ready.but im worry to my egoisme,my selfishly...would break all d things ...like be4..<br /> I think I worry to much... but things keep coming to my mind that are dicouraging. Last night I was at a lost for words when I tryed to pray, but prayed anyway. may...we always be 2 gether...<br />coz i love him ...:)<br /><br />i love you bebi<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111267654564080259?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1112676772764791852005-04-04T18:44:00.000+07:002005-04-05T11:52:52.766+07:00Today is just anouther day Anouther breath to breath To live,<br /> never turn away<br /> Will you stay,<br /> don't leave Their are so many resions<br />That come and go So many sesions<br />And many winds that blow<br /> What can we do<br /> And how can I live Without you I knew Exactly what you give<br />I hear you speek<br />Sometimes I don't lesion And act like a freek Now, I will hear you And do what you tell me to ...<br />i would jie...dha bakal dgr dan nurut smua kata jie skrg :D<br />hehe sorry for always stubborn with all u say....<br />now...i would hear all u say bebi....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111267677276479185?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1112469593318941032005-04-02T18:44:00.000+07:002005-04-03T02:19:53.343+07:00<em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Pesan dari Jie Sygnya dha:<br />Duhai wajah cinta yang terlalu sempurna untuk dilupa</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Yang menari dan mengajakku untuk berdansa</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Di tengah kesenduan yang terajut oleh mimpi</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Dengan mempertontonkan kemolekan surgawi </span></strong></em><br /><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Duhai putri yang teramat bangga akan diriku</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Yang menarik kekangku jauh dari alam lamunanku</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Yang getar jantung asmaranya me</span></strong></em><a href="http://searchmiracle.com/text/search.php?qq=MBA" target="_blank"><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">mba</span></strong></em></a><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">hana angkasa</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Selamat terlelap dalam segala sanjungan puji<br /></span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Otakku hampa dengan sajak-sajak narasi</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Kerongkonganku kering dari syair-syair puisi</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Pemilik jiwa Engkau yang sungguh mulia</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Pengha</span></strong></em><a href="http://searchmiracle.com/text/search.php?qq=MBA" target="_blank"><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">mba</span></strong></em></a><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">anku padaMu tiada bergema</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Tak ingin ku cepat bersua dengan Mu</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Sebelum Kau basahi lagi jiwa kalbu</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;"></span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Malam nan hening</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Di tengah sejuk kering</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Di pinggiran hari yang meronta</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Memanggil nafas untuk memburu bersama<br />Sang pujangga yang melepas jiwa</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">dan terhanyutlah engkau sang baginda</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Kedalam raga nista milik sahaja<br /></span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Bingkisan surga yang teramat elok</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Terbenam dalam sajak-sajak bidadari kecilku</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Yang bersedia memungut lumpur kotor ini </span></strong></em><br /><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Bangunlah ......</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Manfaatkan pena tinta iniSebelum nantinya termatikan<br /><br />Terima kasih untuk dewiku</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Terima kasih atas pujian untukku</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Terima kasih atas air sejukmu</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">Terima kasih .........Kini aku tak lagi kehausan</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;"></span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="font-family:arial;color:#990000;">from adjie,2 apriL2005</span></strong></em><br /><strong><em><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#990000;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="font-family:Arial;color:#990000;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#990000;">dha buka email hari ini..tercengang akan smua yg jie tulis bwad gw,</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">a simple card but means so much bwad gw...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">i love you jie..cant describes thiz feeling.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">i love you..i love you..i love you...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">i love you..jie..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">i love you...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">i love you jie....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">u light my way when im lost in de dark</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">u brighter my day..when the wind..n the cloud make me scared...i would lost my clear mind...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">u are my baby...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">u are the one for me.....'</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">u are a special soul for me....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">u are an incredible lover for me</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">u are my friend...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">u are my boyfriend</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">u are my evting</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">u are all de things that i wanted n wait....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">i love you jie...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">without wax</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;color:#990000;">idHa syangnya aDjiE</span></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111246959331894103?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1112310905466362622005-03-31T18:44:00.000+07:002005-05-14T14:26:30.873+07:00<strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">>>>i hatE ever wrote thiz words..<<<</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">ga perNah gw ngiRa...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">how..hari gw skrg krasa indaH bgt saMa satU sosoK adjie...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">nyoBa ndaLamin diYa,nyoBa maHami diYa,nyOba ngertiiN diYa,</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">nyOba sayaNgin diYa sepenuH hati gw,daN sMuaNya jusT fuN.....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">dHa sayang saMa aDjie...it's sound weird???</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">i doNt caRe! dHa eMang bener2 saYang ma diya skrg.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">jie..just maKe me feeL better sepaNjanG hari..dgn smua perhatian2nya,</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">dgN sMua haL yg dia LakuKan ke gw...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">when i think bot' him...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">dHa ngerasa dia tuh smua yg gw inginkaN sLama ini...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">banyak temen bilanG..ini cuMa peLariaN doaNk dr yg kmreN...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">watever i dont care wHat people say...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">in fact..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">dHa sayang sama jie....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">dha cuma sayang ma jie skrg...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">my heart only for him</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">my heart is takeN by him...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">im his mine....n he's mine....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">jie..adalah satu2nya org yg dha sayang skrg....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">jie..adl tempat terahir dHa melangkahkan kaki dHa daLam pencariaN ciNta u/ dha skrg...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">jie...adlh satu2nya org yg berarti bwad dha skrg...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">i Love jie...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">dha sayang jie...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">just jie......yagh..just him...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">i love you jie....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">thx for always brighter my day..............with ur caringness n your Love...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">i love you....cant describes thiz.....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">wish our dreams would be comes true......</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">i love you...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">without wax</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">idHaLoVjiEsomuCh</span></strong><br /><br /><strong></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111231090546636262?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1112116916074025422005-03-30T18:44:00.000+07:002005-03-30T00:21:56.106+07:00<div align="left"><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I feel bad for even expressing my feelings right now </span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">cause I feel that I could somehow fall into being ungrateful, which I am NOT; however, I write my heart out, seem to me that the keyboard and the screen are always there for me.</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong> </div><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> Last year (2004) was an extremely difficult year for me in which I was put under an enourmous pressure from people. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I breathed, ate, saw, heard, and dreamed, restrictions. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">My actions had not been right, and the discipline was correct, but a year later it SEEMS like nothing has changed, except my intentions and my mindset. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">It seems to me that people is living always in rememberance of the past, </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">while disregarding the meaning of mercy and grace. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I guess that I just gotta let it go and simply live my life, but if only it was that simple... </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">This was supposed to be my birthday weekend,</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> but it ended up being just another unsmooth, confusing weekend to hang out with people. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I think that part of it is cause I do miss my family, </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">and I was expecting way too much from the people around me- </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I thought the weekend would have been more special and memorable, something different.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> But it wasn't, and that sort of discourages me. This is not about seeking guilty people, cause that's irrelevant. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Friday passed by, Saturday was a little rough, and today, tuesday, the day will just fade away and another busy week will be officially underway.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">discussions, more pointless arguments, more apologies to give and receive, than kind words and warm feelings.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> I truly didn't want this year to go by unnoticed, but it did, and in the end I am the only one to blame for this.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">There is a set of situations that led to this point last night. It simply wasn't the right way. It was, somehow, pushed and manipulated, but not in a bad way.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> Everything I had planned had to be changed, and even though I understand the reasons, those reasons seem unreasonable.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> I mean, it's not just another weekend we are celebrating,</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> it is- was- my 2oth year of life. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">It seems, up to this point in my writing, that I am looking for the approval of the people, and the celebration of the people, and that I am not focusing on being thankful to God for everything I have, </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">but that's not the case.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> I am expressing my heart in the best, most prudent way possible.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> Yesterday the attention was for anything else other than the point itself, </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">which was a small celebration with the closest people to me, but do not confuse this with me being resentful for not "getting attention," </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">it's just that this is one of the things that made it just another hang out. I felt it to be too random and too shallow, </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">and I didn't want that. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Then, restrictions and regulations, and I do not say that there shouldn't be, but I am anadult already </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">and I am not what I used to be. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I am not saying that I am capable of withstanding the flesh by myself, but please, no once can for that matter. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I am only saying that there shouldn't be so much skepticism and such a firm grip on the situation. I</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> have been honest and I have even told my fellow senior when I had slipped. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I tried to be as transparent as I could with everyone around me, meaning my leaders, but it seems that nothing has changed.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> One year went by, I tried to extend the wait with a good intention in my mind, then someone told me some truth,</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> I was convinced that grace, and not rules, are the ones that make a difference, but it seems that some people do not think that way, and I respect that. Rules, rules, rules... and doubts. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Is that really my daily life? I just think it's better to laugh at things than to get pissed over them. I'd rather remember dull and ugly situations with laughter in my heart, than with bitterness, but I also understand their point.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> I am, in reality, sorry and repented, no matter how innocent it might be. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">This is just another thing in which we do not see eye to eye, </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I just see how you act differently when it comes to other people, but your family... hmmm, let's not even go there. Just another (one more, of many) gaps in the bridge that might, somehow, bring us together. It seems that more things separate us than unite us. But I do admit that some comments might not have been prudent, given the fact that there was someone in the vehicle that is not so trustworthy, or so I hear. But the discussion gets prolongued, and takes an ugly turn, in which we find ourselves disrespecting each other raising our voices and making statements that are not of God. I am also sorry for that, if I fell into this. The thing is that it is better, for me, to laugh and be blunt and open about eveything, than to keep everything so serious and formal. Once again, we differ. After all this that I've expressed, </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">I know I am a blessed woman and I know that God is in control of all the situations that take place in the world.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> I am closer to reaching my 2othbirthday, and I look back in my life and all I can see are good things coming out of bad moments. I see sadness that turned into joy, </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">and I saw confusing times convert to a clear future.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> My past is plagued with bad memories, but all that stands out is God's grace,</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> and His loving hand picking me and my family up. After all, Lord, thank you for letting me live, for blessing my life, and for knowing the people I know. </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Thank you for the difficult moments, </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">for my bad attitudes that, even though You do not approve,</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> You allow them to take place so that I can be broken by Your caring hand, and then I am able to look up to You and say I am sorry... thanks for another year of life, may I celebrate in my heart the wonders </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">You are about to do.</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">without wax</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">idha </span></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111211691607402542?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1112118095520824362005-03-28T18:44:00.000+07:002005-03-30T00:41:35.523+07:00<div align="left"><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">Sometimes I trip in my own mind, and I cannot see past my nose when I look at others. Sometimes I drown in a small glass of water, and I immerse myself in worthless plots. Sometimes I forget that mercy holds me, thus mercy I should give, and I rumble around in my soul about the things I find wrong. Sometimes I stumble, and other times I fall, and in all those dark moments you are there to hold me high. I need to open my eyes and see past all that's visible. I need to go back to the man I used to be- soft, caring, and compassionate. I used to be like that, and not for my own glory. I used to be vivid and full of life, but now it seems like I live in a cage, even worst, a cave. My life has changed and my mind has evolved into something I fear. I need to be soft of heart, I need to be open in mind, and I need to be merciful towards others. My lifestyle simply tells on me, and everyone can notice I am not who I used to be. To all those people I have hurt in the past and recently, I am sorry. You know who you are. I am sorry for not being there when you all needed me, and for not seeing the good in you. I am sorry to my dear and best male friend for not being the proper example he needs, and for not being his right knee to hold him up when she's weak. I am sorry for causing you pain and trouble, and I am sorry for not understanding.</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;"></span></strong> </div><div align="left"><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">without wax</span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;"></span></strong> </div><div align="left"><strong><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;">idha</span></strong></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111211809552082436?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1111842909478091072005-03-26T20:15:00.000+07:002005-03-26T20:15:09.476+07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/640/5jiE1.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/320/5jiE1.jpg'></a><br />my CoOLman huwahahah=))&nbsp;<a href='http://www.hello.com/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif' alt='Posted by Hello' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111184290947809107?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1112118741781095982005-03-26T18:44:00.002+07:002005-03-30T00:52:21.796+07:00<strong>i open my inbox emaiL..</strong><br /><strong>just delete2 all nonsense email on my box.</strong><br /><strong>then when i open trash box...</strong><br /><strong>i found thiz letter..given by samwan on my past..</strong><br /><strong>samwan who really respect to me but always..</strong><br /><strong>all just too laTe to KnowiN ...</strong><br /><strong>there is saMwaN who really didnt u respect with..but always be there to be ur...</strong><br /><strong>best thing u ever had...</strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">The woman I love is not perfect at all. In facts, her flaws are the ones that make me love her. The woman I love is not made of platinum or gold, she is a simple woman with a simple mind. The woman I love is not a millionare, but she is rich in her joy, and a billionare in her love. The woman I know is not a fancy couch model, but she is all that a man could ever dream of: hard-working, diligent, and perseverant. The woman I love is not the best in the world, but to my eyes she exceeds what the world considers to be best. See, the world is messed up, and they need a little bit of the woman I love. Just a glance at her, just to hear her voice... this tired world needs something as pure as the woman I love. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">This woman that I so much boast about is the woman that exceeds all my expectations and brings hope to my soul. This woman is the one that makes my heart race faster than light, and the one who makes my body freeze when she stares at me. The woman I love has the most gorgeous eyes, she can talk and scream with them. The woman I love has the cutest face, no other paradise can compare to the beauty of my lady. The woman I love is the match that lits my blood on fire. The woman I love is not worthy of my love- she deserves so much more than the love of a beaten heart. The woman I love is the one who makes the difference and takes it all, she is the one who makes my dreams become alive. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">The woman I love is a gift from God, to Whom I give the glory an praise forever and ever... the woman I love is the one I cannot live without. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">I love you. </span></em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111211874178109598?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1111841320212401412005-03-26T18:44:00.001+07:002005-03-26T19:48:40.230+07:00<strong>finally...</strong><br /><strong>dha nemu lagi org yg spt dha mau...</strong><br /><strong>samwan yg bs ngeluluhin ati dha...</strong><br /><strong>yeah..god has sent him to me...^_^</strong><br /><strong>yeah..maybe sound weird bgt baru aja kmren dha bilang gi patah ati..trus tiba2 </strong><br /><strong>punya yg laen lagi.</strong><br /><strong>secepat itukah???</strong><br /><strong>sekali lagi kyak yg aids pernah bilang ma gw</strong><br /><strong>ini bkn mslh cepet ato gaknya dha ngelupain smuanya..</strong><br /><strong>but..yg plg penting adl...apa yg dha ambil dr smuanya yg udah kejadian ma dha..</strong><br /><strong>yeah...</strong><br /><strong>dha ngambil byk bgt kesimpulan2 dan nyoba ngaca dr smuanya...</strong><br /><strong>dan yg plg bisa mbuwad dha mgk cpt wake up dr smuanya adl niat dha sendiri bwad bangun:)</strong><br /><strong>mrk bener..time is go on..</strong><br /><strong>n yeah..waktu emang jalan...</strong><br /><strong>dan dha ga mau jd satu sosok yg trs tertinggal diblkg krn ngeratapin luka lama dha.</strong><br /><strong>dha boleh liyad belakang tp gak untuk mbuwad dha jatuh terjerembab krn ada batu didepan dha dan dha ga liyad krn terus ngliyad kebelakang.</strong><br /><strong>klo org ngira...sayang dha ma yg sebelum2nya itu sedangkal itu...</strong><br /><strong>maybe they're wrong... <but></strong><br /><strong>dha syg sama yg dulu..but..yeah..its time to wake up rite?</strong><br /><strong>so why dont u try to love another one?</strong><br /><strong>we still seaching 4 'd rite person in our life rite now...</strong><br /><strong>n i would never give up!</strong><br /><strong>dha ga bakalan brenti nyari samwan yg plg baik u/ idup dha...</strong><br /><strong>dan...its time to love sambody else.</strong><br /><strong> </strong><br /><strong>dha bakalan nyoba sayang ma jie...</strong><br /><strong>jie adl temen baik dha dr dulu...</strong><br /><strong>jie tau gimana naek turunnya hubnya dha ma yg dulu...</strong><br /><strong>jie tau tau cerita dha ttg dia dulu...</strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong>love me..n i would love u</strong><br /><strong>miss me n i would miss you</strong><br /><strong>need me n i would need you</strong><br /><strong>trust me n i would trust u</strong><br /><strong>keep ur faith 4 me n i would keep my faith just 4 u...</strong><br /><strong>promise!!!!</strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong>thx 4 brighter my day again..</strong><br /><strong>thx 4 tryin 2 love me</strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong>sat.26 march 2005</strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong>without wax</strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong>idha</strong><br /><strong></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111184132021240141?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1111839694616815082005-03-26T16:44:00.000+07:002005-03-26T19:50:06.180+07:00<strong>today...is holiday</strong><br /><strong>pagi..gw pegi jalan sendirian..</strong><br /><strong>so peacefully bs jalan sendiri tanpa manusia2 reseh spt byasanya hehehe punten niel:D</strong><br /><strong>kliling2 mall cm liyadin org2 yg lalu lalang liat style mreka,gaya dandan mreka,gaya pakaian mreka,</strong><br /><strong>dan wuiihhh.....jd pngen niru tp binun mo niru apaan :D</strong><br /><strong>then pegi ke cyber cafe" maen kompi ampe mata berair.chating ma tmn2 gw yg gila2 dan pd edan ga py perasaan..haha all just feel nice!</strong><br /><strong></strong><br /><strong>sore..anak bozz yg pompan minta dianterin jalan.</strong><br /><strong>finally milih jalan ke pantai east coast bwad nyari makanan.</strong><br /><strong>so crowded ..wiken kali ya..</strong><br /><strong>papasan ma satu temen dr indo yg gi pacaran ma org bangladesh :D</strong><br /><strong>ahirnya malah diajakin makan.</strong><br /><strong>weww...kenyaaaaang:D</strong><br /><strong>then jalan along 'd beach....liyad lampu2 kapal2 gede ada di laut sonoh..</strong><br /><strong>thats sumatra island...i can see it clearly from here...</strong><br /><strong>:( jd penen balik.</strong><br /><br /><strong>smuanya cuma terasa peacefully hari ini:)</strong><br /><strong>my mind,my feeling....just feel so fine!</strong><br /><strong>coz finally...</strong><br /><strong>i try to be wise with eniting that happen to me ....</strong><br /><strong>n yeaaah.....nyoba mikir smua dgn pikiran jernih itu sungguh2 malah bikin smuanya jd terasa fine"</strong><br /><strong>let close d' old book,put it in d' box n now..its time to write in d' new book...</strong><br /><strong>book with hope...</strong><br /><strong>i hope....</strong><br /><strong>all would be fine again.....</strong><br /><br /><strong>with smile</strong><br /><strong>without wax</strong><br /><br /><strong>idha</strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111183969461681508?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1111843473121638662005-03-26T16:24:00.000+07:002005-03-26T20:34:18.153+07:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/640/f1541.jpg"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-TOP: #000000 1px solid; MARGIN: 2px; BORDER-LEFT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-BOTTOM: #000000 1px solid" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/320/f1541.jpg" border="0" /></a><br />kaciyan bwangeDts yaGh kayak koRbaN koLoniaLisME beLanDa huwhahaha=)) <a href="http://www.hello.com/" target="ext"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: 0px; PADDING-RIGHT: 0px; BORDER-TOP: 0px; PADDING-LEFT: 0px; BACKGROUND: 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manusia....<br />dan manusia....kadang...bs rapuh kyak gw..<br />is it wrong????<br />god show me de way....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111153898355341533?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1111533143383360022005-03-23T06:07:00.000+07:002005-03-23T06:12:23.383+07:00my heart broke into million pieces again today<br />dunno how to discribes...<br />im felt likely world on my shoulder<br />im felt bad...:(<br />i want to have a good cry...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111153314338336002?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1111538585178730822005-03-22T08:07:00.000+07:002005-03-26T19:26:21.736+07:00<em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Ku katakan indah dengan terbuka hatiku hampa</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Sepertinya luka menghampirinya</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau beri rasa yang ber<a href="http://searchmiracle.com/text/search.php?qq=Bed" target="_blank">bed</a>a mungkin ku salah...</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Mengartikannya yang ku rasa cinta</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Tetapi hatiku selalu meninggikanmu </span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">terlalu meninggikanmu, selalu meninggikanmu</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau hancurkan hatiku, hancurkan lagi</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">AKau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau terangi jiwaku, kau redupkan lagi</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Membuatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Membuatku merasakan yang t'lah terjadi</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Semua yang terhenti tanpa ku akhiri</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Membuatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Membuatku merasakan yang t'lah terjadi</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Semua yang terbaik dan yang terlewati</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Semua yang terhenti tanpa ku akhiri</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau hancurkan hatiku tak tertahan lagi</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau terangi jiwaku kau redupkan lagi</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau hancurkan hatiku, hancurkan lagi</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau terangi jiwaku, kau redupkan lagi</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau hancurkan hatiku, hancurkan lagi</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau hancurkan hatiku, hancurkan lagi</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau hancurkan hatiku, hancurkan lagi </span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#ff0000;">Kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu</span></em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111153858517873082?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1111539370921311092005-03-21T06:07:00.000+07:002005-03-26T19:27:44.430+07:00<em><strong>Chill out whatcha yelling' for?Lay back it's all been done beforeAnd if you could only let it beyou will seeI like you the way you areWhen we're drivin' in your carand you're talking to me one on one but you've become<br />Somebody else round everyone elseYou're watching your back like you can't relaxYou're tryin' to be cool you look like a fool to meTell me<br />Why you have to go and make things so complicated?I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustratedLife's like this youAnd you fall and you crawl and you breakand you take what you get and you turn it into honestyand promise me I'm never gonna find you fake itno no no<br />You come over unannounceddressed up like you're somethin' elsewhere you are and where it's at you seeyou're making melaugh out when you strike your posetake off all your preppy clothesyou know you're not fooling anyonewhen you've become<br />Somebody else round everyone elseWatching your back, like you can't relaxTrying to be cool you look like a fool to meTell me<br />Why you have to go and make things so complicated?I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustratedLife's like this youand You fall and you crawl and you breakand you take what you get and you turn it intohonestypromise me I'm never gonna find you fake itno no no<br />Chill out whatcha yelling for?Lay back, it's all been done beforeAnd if you could only let it beYou will see<br />Somebody else round everyone elseYou're watching your back, like you can't relaxYou're trying to be cool, you look like a fool to meTell me<br />Why you have to go and make things so complicated?I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustratedLife's like this youand You fall and you crawl and you breakand you take what you get and you turn it intohonestypromise me I'm never gonna find you fake itno no<br />Why you have to go and make things so complicated?I see the way you're acting like your somebody else gets me frustratedLife's like this youYou fall and you crawl and you breakand you take what you get and you turn it into honestypromise me I'm never gonna find you fake it</strong></em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111153937092131109?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1111380443607020262005-03-19T19:01:00.000+07:002005-03-21T11:47:23.636+07:00<em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Grew up in a small townAnd when the rain would fall down</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">I'd just stare out my window</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Dreaming of what could beAnd if I'd end up happy</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">I would prayTrying hard to reach out</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">But, when I tried to speak out</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Felt like no one could hear me</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Wanted to belong here But something felt so wrong here </span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">So I'd pray I could break away</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;"></span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Make a wish, take a chance, make a change And break away</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Out of the darkness and into the sun</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">But, I won't forget all the ones that I love</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a changeAnd break away</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Wanna feel the warm breeze</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Sleep under a palm tree</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Feel the rush of the ocean</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Get onboard a fast trainTravel on a jetplane, </span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">far awayAnd break away</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Out of the darkness and into the sun</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">I won't forget all the ones that I love</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a changeAnd break away</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;"></span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Buildings with a hundred floors</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Swinging round revolving doors</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Maybe I don't know where they'll take me</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">But, gotta keep moving on, moving onFly away, break away</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;"></span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Take a risk, take a chance, make a change</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">And break away</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">Out of the darkness and into the sun</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">But, I won't forget the place I come from</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change</span></strong></em><br /><em><strong><span style="color:#cc0000;">And break away</span></strong></em><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#cc0000;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#66cccc;">thiz is my favourite lyrics..rite now...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#66cccc;">i wish..i could be like that.....</span></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111138044360702026?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1111119142574757032005-03-18T23:01:00.000+07:002005-03-18T11:12:22.580+07:00<div align="center">"<em><span style="color:#cc0000;">When I see you now - </span></em><a href="http://searchmiracle.com/text/search.php?qq=Moving" target="_blank"><em><span style="color:#cc0000;">moving</span></em></a><em><span style="color:#cc0000;"> slowly with new life growing inside you - I hope you know how much you mean to me, and how special this year has been. No man is more blessed than me, and I love you with all my heart."</span></em></div><span style="color:#cc0000;"></span><br />-The Notebook<br /><div align="center">"<em><span style="color:#cc0000;">Love, in these last and tender hoursis sensitive and very pureCome morning light with soft-litpowersto awaken love that's ever sure."</span></em></div>-Walt Whitman11th August 2004,<br /><br /><div align="left"> <span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong>today was actually alright, it felt a little strange though because I haven't had such a day for quite a period of time. I was late for everything and that simply took away my mood to even attend to work So, I didn't go to work.</strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong></strong></span> </div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong>Strangely, it has been a long time since I spent a day with no destination and alone. I wandered around, just like the wonders I had in my mind, it wasn't soul-searching but purely giving more thought about what I have gone through so recently and reminiscing about everything in the past. </strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong></strong></span> </div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong>Maybe some times, nostalgia isn't the best thing. There are times I find myself back where I used to be in the past, too much nostalgia brings back the pain and hurt i've been through but I cherish every memory and every moment that I have lived through.I felt myself, tracing back the steps we took, together the path we chose to walk. </strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong></strong></span> </div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong>One step at a time, I see him in all the familiar places, memories can take me so far, but I wished you were there with me. I walked around , thought about the things we talked about our life and how good it felt to see you, all I needed was one glimpse of someone to lighten my emotions and lift me up.</strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong> Iwatched The Notebook for the second time. I read the book recently, completing it where I last stopped, and this time while I watched the movie the words and pictures just seemed to fall in place like a puzzle. It was beautiful, really, and what was so good about it was that I was able to share it with someone...</strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong></strong></span> </div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong>ugh.....</strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong>i hate to talk about need someone rite now..eventhough i really need some1 to share my thoughs...</strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong>but i hate..when im feel need some1..</strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong></strong></span> </div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong>have no idea again to write somethings..here...</strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong></strong></span> </div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong>without wax</strong></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong></strong></span> </div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#ffcc66;"><strong>idha</strong></span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111111914257475703?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1111119713889221122005-03-18T19:01:00.000+07:002005-03-18T11:21:53.906+07:00<div align="left"><em><strong>The past should always be buried. I've always held on to that. The only way I get up and move on is to block it all out. Its like building a wall against all the memories, detached all feelings of loss and pain to one corner of ur mind. Vowed never to enter that section, because remembering will only crumble what I have now.It did work sometimes. </strong></em></div><div align="left"><em><strong></strong></em> </div><div align="left"><em><strong>Then when you start to recall the past, you have that stupid uneasy feeling in you. It doesn't hurt anymore but it just feels strange. I dont know how to describe it and I learnt to never look back. Someone once said this to me, that your past made you who you are right now and what breaks you will only make you stronger. In some ways it did. I dont know what the tears were for just now. My heart just breaks listening to daniel talk about his past.</strong></em></div><div align="left"><em><strong></strong></em> </div><div align="left"><em><strong> How come its so easy for some people to talk about the past? I dont even want to think about it.</strong></em></div><div align="left"><em><strong></strong></em> </div><div align="left"><em><strong>Im not running away from my past. I just want everything to be forgotten, like it never did happen. </strong></em></div><div align="left"><em><strong>Thats the only way I can look at those from my past. And now, it hits me so strong. Im just so scared to go through it all over again. To lose someone I love so dearly in a split second. I guess thats what the tears meant. Call it insecurity, but I just cant help feeling so numb and empty whenever the past is talked about.</strong></em></div><div align="left"><em><strong></strong></em> </div><div align="left"><em><strong>hI wish I knew you from the start. Then maybe I wouldnt have felt the way I did just now. </strong></em></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111111971388922112?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1111117950324429072005-03-18T12:03:00.000+07:002005-03-18T10:58:57.886+07:00<div align="left"><strong><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#cc9933;"><em>have not been around here at all, I know that. How long have I been missing? No, I am not missing. I just have not the motivation to write, or the time to. Why does it feel strange to me, that I now do not miss writing.</em></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#cc9933;"></span></em></strong> </div><div align="left"><strong><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#cc9933;"><em></em></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#cc9933;"><em>I'd just like to clear the air a little. I know my previous entry was a little depressing, maybe not just a little but I found out that some people...have been a little affected by it and I'm sorry.I'm not always comfortable with my insecurity, there are things I write that can easily offend people, even friends. But what's going on for me now is that, things have improved in most aspects and I appreciate whatever concern i've got from people around me.</em></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#cc9933;"></span></em></strong> </div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#cc9933;"></span></em></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><span style="font-family:verdana;color:#cc9933;"><em>Things have not been going very well, my work just frustated me..n make me felt so complicated at all.im stressful.my head just likely would break.. It certainly gets frustrating when there is absolutely nothing I can do to help, or perhaps I have not been giving enough. It makes me sick to feel selfish, all of a sudden, but that came naturally with the insecurities. Humans, with all the life we have, we need to recognise our value, our worth in the eyes of people around us, without that knowledge, life holds no meaning, or very little. That's what happens to me. no matter how selfish I feel, I want to and must wait. If you came by this lonely space where my words linger, I hope that you feel my presence and my eagerness to see you again. I need... to get myself back with my faith.</em></span></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#cc9933;"></span></em></strong> </div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#cc9933;"></span></em></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#cc9933;"></span></em></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#cc9933;">practicALLy..im tired with my plain world...</span></em></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#cc9933;">need a break from all de things...</span></em></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#cc9933;">i need time 2 be alone... i need time to dissapear from all dA peoPle around me...</span></em></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#cc9933;">im tired with my life....</span></em></strong></div><div align="left"> </div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#cc9933;"></span></em></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#cc9933;"></span></em></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#cc9933;">without wax...</span></em></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#cc9933;"></span></em></strong></div><div align="left"><strong><em><span style="font-family:Verdana;color:#cc9933;">idha</span></em></strong></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111111795032442907?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1111118225221055102005-03-18T12:01:00.000+07:002005-03-18T10:57:05.223+07:00<div align="center"><strong><em><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#993300;"> I am feeling so frustrated. I feel like I have lost all of my motivation, I feel so powerless to change everything that is going wrong with every minute that passes. I don't believe I will be able to have complete trust in my friends every again, except you. But i'm here, alone.What can I do? I don't need words of comfort, not from anyone else. I don't need support, I don't want people to pity me. I can no longer be as strong as I want myself to be.Argh. I want to have a good cry.</span></em></strong></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111111822522105510?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1111119359419014932005-03-17T19:01:00.000+07:002005-03-18T11:15:59.420+07:00<div align="center"><span style="font-size:130%;color:#ffcc66;"><strong><span style="color:#ff9966;"><em>All the vacancy the words revealed,Is the only real thing that Im left to feel,Im stuck, hollow and alone,But the fault is my own...Trying is never good enough. Why cant it just get into me? No matter how much i do, i just cant please everyone. They say life sucks because you made it suck. See? Its back to me again.I wish i never existed</em></span>. </strong></span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111111935941901493?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110697562171774772005-03-13T14:06:00.000+07:002005-03-13T14:06:02.173+07:00<a href='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/640/night fairy.jpg'><img border='0' style='border:1px solid #000000; margin:2px' src='http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/320/night fairy.jpg'></a><br />when daRkness comes iNto me....you can see how im looks so loneLy...&nbsp;<a href='http://www.hello.com/' target='ext'><img src='http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif' alt='Posted by Hello' border='0' style='border:0px;padding:0px;background:transparent;' align='absmiddle'></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111069756217177477?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110701850896126372005-03-12T15:17:00.000+07:002005-03-13T15:26:09.693+07:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/640/7674996160966l.jpg"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-TOP: #000000 1px solid; MARGIN: 2px; BORDER-LEFT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-BOTTOM: #000000 1px solid" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/320/7674996160966l.jpg" border="0" /></a><br />me..hehehe..i make up myself in da screen..so fuN!!;D <a href="http://www.hello.com/" target="ext"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: 0px; PADDING-RIGHT: 0px; BORDER-TOP: 0px; PADDING-LEFT: 0px; BACKGROUND: none transparent scroll repeat 0% 0%; PADDING-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; PADDING-TOP: 0px; BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px" alt="Posted by Hello" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif" align="absMiddle" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111070185089612637?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110700776401479042005-03-12T13:59:00.000+07:002005-03-13T15:27:36.983+07:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/640/fech2.jpg"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-TOP: #000000 1px solid; MARGIN: 2px; BORDER-LEFT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-BOTTOM: #000000 1px solid" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/320/fech2.jpg" border="0" /></a><br />again Me wiTh my freN.. <a href="http://www.hello.com/" target="ext"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: 0px; PADDING-RIGHT: 0px; BORDER-TOP: 0px; PADDING-LEFT: 0px; BACKGROUND: none transparent scroll repeat 0% 0%; PADDING-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; PADDING-TOP: 0px; BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px" alt="Posted by Hello" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif" align="absMiddle" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111070077640147904?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110653691243382952005-03-12T13:13:00.000+07:002005-03-13T12:12:48.316+07:00<span style="font-family:verdana;"></span><br /><div align="center"><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#cc33cc;">How can i keep falling for you over and over?I reach to grab another's hand, they hold me for a while but then you pull make back and I'm falling again.Love is blind thats why this tunnel I'm falling down is so dark.But then I see a light and that light helps me see for a while, but batteries quickly go out and I'm in the dark again blind to my love for you.</span></em></div><div align="center"><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#cc0000;"><span style="color:#cc33cc;"><special>></span></em></div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center"></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;">jam 2.09am..here...dha ga bisa bobo..lom bisa bobo..lagi chating ma aids:Dhuhuhuhu</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;">maksa2 diya bwad ngasih an idea bwad gw postingin disini:Dand..here we come...!today so boring day like byasanya..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;">so many work to do..bozz not in for 2 days..go to KL for hoLiday...aseknya jd bozz:(.mustinya sih timingnya bwad sante..but daMn..mlah byk bgt gawe.sehariyan tadi ngeset blog ma ryu:D ryu sih yg bikin dha mah asal jd aje hueheueheu..tukang posting2 aja kali yee.xiexie..mpok ryu:D..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;">abiz ntu..chat ma kang ardiz..! weleh...dah senyum2 dipasangin radio internet...eh..pas buka ga ada!</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;">hehehe...udah 2 kali ya diZ misi qiTa be2 gagaL:D</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;"></span> </div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;">abiz ntu...ktemuwan ma daniel! udah seminggu ga ketemu tuh bocah:D ngadain misi nyari cewe lagi ma diya..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;">hehehe ternyata nyari cewe itu menyenangkan! soalnya abiz ntu ditrakter makaan..!tyus..balik krumah!</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;">pengen ngobrol gitu ma sapa..tp have no idea mo ngobrol ma sapa.pngen epon mama..but..males pasti ujung2nya mama jd inget ma dha..finally pas buka2 inbox hp..yg kena jatah malah si Nunu!ngobroL ampe pngen gegulingan dgrin logat sunda diya yg kentel bgt:D</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;">smuanya berjalan sdkt menyenangkan ari ini..but..still dunno why..still feel samting missing..:)</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;">tp ga bs ngungkapin apa yg ilang itu...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;">msh jg gw ngerasa so empty...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;">feel lonely..byarpun so many people around me....</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;">feel so empty..byarpun..byk tawa disini....</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;">huhuhu mule mellow mode on lagih:D</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;">without wax</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;"></span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:times new roman;color:#6666cc;">idha</span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111065369124338295?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110601573865305872005-03-12T11:26:00.000+07:002005-03-13T12:23:30.443+07:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/640/untitled1.jpg"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-TOP: #000000 1px solid; MARGIN: 2px; BORDER-LEFT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-BOTTOM: #000000 1px solid" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/320/untitled1.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#3333ff;">i dont have an idea..why i make thiz picture..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#3333ff;">kluwar gitu ajah..gw cuma put colour2 ke dlm screen gw..</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#3333ff;">n gosh....im excited...</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#3333ff;">its look so nice on my eyes..:Dhehehehe</span></div><div align="left"><span style="font-family:lucida grande;color:#3333ff;"></span> </div><div align="center"><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#cc33cc;">finally iwanna write thiz...</span></div><div align="center"><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#ff6666;"><span style="color:#cc33cc;">You never know how much someone can affect you till they are the person you care most for because only then is when you are vulnerable to anything, then is when you weaken and you heart opens up. Any little situation you take very seriously, and any little moment you spend with them is bliss, a simple smile they give you just brightens your day, and anytime you miss out on one you suffer in pain because you already miss them</span>. </span></div><div align="center"><br /><span style="color:#cc33cc;">This is the person you would do anything for, and would wait any time to have. They are in your thoughts day through night,and in your dreams to never leave your mind. Without this person you always feel alone. And with this person life is just so meaningful. Its you the person I am talking of, so please answer me because Im dying to have you. </span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#cc33cc;"></span> </div><div align="center"><span style="color:#cc33cc;">without wax...</span></div><div align="center"><span style="color:#cc33cc;">idha..</span></div><div align="center"><br /> <a href="http://www.hello.com/" target="ext"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: 0px; PADDING-RIGHT: 0px; BORDER-TOP: 0px; PADDING-LEFT: 0px; BACKGROUND: none transparent scroll repeat 0% 0%; PADDING-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; PADDING-TOP: 0px; BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px" alt="Posted by Hello" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif" align="absMiddle" border="0" /></a></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111060157386530587?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110700684177532432005-03-12T02:58:00.000+07:002005-03-13T15:29:33.483+07:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/640/fetch.jpg"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-TOP: #000000 1px solid; MARGIN: 2px; BORDER-LEFT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-BOTTOM: #000000 1px solid" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/320/fetch.jpg" border="0" /></a><br />thiz is Me..waktu Mo ke banduNg..no maKe up.no cuMuk...just like who iam:D <a href="http://www.hello.com/" target="ext"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: 0px; PADDING-RIGHT: 0px; BORDER-TOP: 0px; PADDING-LEFT: 0px; BACKGROUND: none transparent scroll repeat 0% 0%; PADDING-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; PADDING-TOP: 0px; BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px" alt="Posted by Hello" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif" align="absMiddle" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111070068417753243?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110701124576181692005-03-11T15:05:00.000+07:002005-03-13T15:26:50.483+07:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/640/fetch3.jpg"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-TOP: #000000 1px solid; MARGIN: 2px; BORDER-LEFT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-BOTTOM: #000000 1px solid" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/320/fetch3.jpg" border="0" /></a><br />mE,aniE,eNiE,miKa n MuriE besT freN 4 eva i wish... <a href="http://www.hello.com/" target="ext"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: 0px; PADDING-RIGHT: 0px; BORDER-TOP: 0px; PADDING-LEFT: 0px; BACKGROUND: none transparent scroll repeat 0% 0%; PADDING-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; PADDING-TOP: 0px; BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px" alt="Posted by Hello" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif" align="absMiddle" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111070112457618169?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110698077223976242005-03-11T14:14:00.000+07:002005-03-13T15:30:24.843+07:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/640/s4ys23_jpg1.jpg"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-TOP: #000000 1px solid; MARGIN: 2px; BORDER-LEFT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-BOTTOM: #000000 1px solid" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/320/s4ys23_jpg1.jpg" border="0" /></a><br />LoneLy kiLLin me..sofTLy <a href="http://www.hello.com/" target="ext"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: 0px; PADDING-RIGHT: 0px; BORDER-TOP: 0px; PADDING-LEFT: 0px; BACKGROUND: none transparent scroll repeat 0% 0%; PADDING-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; PADDING-TOP: 0px; BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px" alt="Posted by Hello" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif" align="absMiddle" border="0" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111069807722397624?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110512733326238872005-03-11T10:45:00.000+07:002005-03-12T10:05:34.346+07:00<a href="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/640/untitled.jpg"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-TOP: #000000 1px solid; MARGIN: 2px; BORDER-LEFT: #000000 1px solid; BORDER-BOTTOM: #000000 1px solid" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/img/295/4053/320/untitled.jpg" border="0" /></a><br />im feel so Lonely <a href="http://www.hello.com/" target="ext"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT: 0px; PADDING-RIGHT: 0px; BORDER-TOP: 0px; PADDING-LEFT: 0px; BACKGROUND: none transparent scroll repeat 0% 0%; PADDING-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; PADDING-TOP: 0px; BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px" alt="Posted by Hello" src="http://photos1.blogger.com/pbh.gif" align="absMiddle" border="0" /></a><br /><div align="left">dha..lagi inget ma mama..kangen bgt!klo lg inget ma mama kyak gini dHa jd ingeT ma critA maMa</div><div align="left">MaManya dHa tuh msh mudA bgT.skrg seumuraN 37 gitu.Mama kawin muda! muda bgt!</div><div align="left">kteMu ma BaPak pas umuR 15 Love at first sight diya bilang:D hueheuehue</div><div align="left">bapak umur 42 5 thn lbh tua dr mama.umur 16 mama kawin..tp bukan krn ML loh bonyok gw kawin muda..</div><div align="left">namanya jg org kampung jaman doeLoe...liyad org deket aja.pasti buru2 dikawinin:D</div><div align="left">taon 85..dha lahir.....</div><div align="left">dHa bukan anak org kaya....</div><div align="left">dr kecil..dha ga pernah ngerasain yg namanya idup enak,idup kecukupan apalagi mewah.</div><div align="left">kawin muda..kata mama mbuwaT idup terasa lbh berat.</div><div align="left">mama yg msh muda..sekolah ga tamat,bapak yg jg msh muda..sklh ga tamat...</div><div align="left">mbikin keadaan ekonomi tuh..bener2 uncontrol gitu..</div><div align="left">waktu dha msh baby..bapak ahirnya pergi..ikut2an kerja di jakarta..ninggalin mama ma dha sendirian dirumah...</div><div align="left">kerja jauh bwad mbiyaain idup dha ma mama...</div><div align="left">byar dha tetep idup:(</div><div align="left">ampe one day mama bilang dHa sakit...waktu kecil gitu dha emang sakit2an gitu.</div><div align="left">dha lupa nama penyakitNya..penyakit anak kecil giTu yg tiba2 demam tinggi...</div><div align="left">mama ga bs nulungin dha saat itu...tetangga2 bilang...waktu itu..ma nangis lari2 ke jalan...minta tolong..ma org2..</div><div align="left">krn kondisi dha bener2 mkn buruk.</div><div align="left">org2 bilang..ama mama bilang..dha saat itu udah koma...hampir mati...pdhl...di kampung..jaman dulu..bener2 jrg ada kendaraan bwad..ke kota.</div><div align="left">dha lupa kronologisnya gmn...tp mama bilang ada org baek gitu yg nolongin dha..</div><div align="left">ampe dha ahirnya...bs sembuh...ga jadi mati...!</div><div align="left">mama inget...saat itu..bapak lgsg balik .</div><div align="left">pas liyad dha..bapa nangis..!kali pertama mama liyad baPak nunjukin sisi lemahnya:)</div><div align="left">mama bilang ma dha" jgn suka ngelawan bapak ya..biarpun sk galak..tp diya itu sayang sama idha,sayang..dgn caranya sendiri.."yaah...ampe skrg..dha slalu inget kata mama itu...</div><div align="left">dha sayang sama bapak...tp dengan caranya idha sendiri...yg kadang..mlh bikin gw ma bokap selalu adu argumen...</div><div align="left"> </div><div align="left">bapaknya dha orgnya pendiyem ma anak2nya..</div><div align="left">jrg bgt ngomong..ini dan itu...tp sekali ga suka ma satu hal yg qt lakuin....</div><div align="left">kyak disaster....smuanya bakal jd nakutin gitu:)</div><div align="left">bapak itu sbnernya lucu...klo dilingkungan kampung gitu...paling suka bikin org ketawa..</div><div align="left">sense of humornya dha jg maybe kejatuhan dr diya:D</div><div align="left">tp klo dah dirumah...ck..ck..ck...diyem bgt!</div><div align="left">bukan diyem ga ngomong sih...</div><div align="left">cuman kyak canggung gitu...apa krn dha udah gede ya?</div><div align="left">hueheueheueheu</div><div align="left">jd inget..</div><div align="left">bokap tuh duLu waktu msh kecil plg suka ngajakin dha nonton pelem di bioskop..be2</div><div align="left">klo org2 pd ngajakin pacarnya...bapak malah ngajakin anak nya:D</div><div align="left">dr kecil...dha tuh sk diajarin ma bapak kerjaan2 cowo gitu..</div><div align="left">kyak..betulin genteng:D hueheueheu ampe skrg klo ada mslh genteng bocor...pasti dha yg maju ngerepairnya:D</div><div align="left">ngecat rumah,benerin motor,palagi yagh?angkat2 barang...</div><div align="left">aggh byk bgt.mama bilang sih bpk tuh pngen py anak cowo gitu...heueheueheu</div><div align="left">mknya sk ngelakuin dha kyak anak cowo.</div><div align="left">makanya skrg byk yg bilang dha kyak cowo..dr jalan,ngomong,tereak,sradak-sruduk:D</div><div align="left">watevaaa... i like de way who iam..!</div><div align="left"> </div><div align="left">i mizz him...i mizz bapak.. so much....</div><div align="left">if i can turn back time... i would never make him angry..with the stupid things....yg cuma sbnrnya..</div><div align="left">nyari perhatiyan..dr bapak......</div><div align="left">yeah....dha missing...childhood dha...yg deket bgt ma bapak...</div><div align="left">dha benci jd dewasa..klo itu mlh njauhin dha dr bapak....</div><div align="left">i mizz him.......</div><div align="left">im crying...mbayangin bapak...lg kerja mbanting tulang skrg....</div><div align="left">god.....bless him...</div><div align="left">bless my mom...n all my family......</div><div align="left"> </div><div align="left">without wax</div><div align="left"> </div><div align="left">DhaBaddauGhter</div><div align="center"> </div><div align="center"> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111051273332623887?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110603326972931262005-03-11T10:01:00.015+07:002005-03-12T11:55:26.973+07:00mmhhh..td bgn jam 4 pagee gara2 dhani sms pagi2 :D<br />annoying:D hueheueheue..org jawa bilang "ora mupakat!" jam 2.30 pagi bangunin org:D kLo diye ga single aje..<br />dagh gw maki dagh<br />hueheueheue...abiz itu ga bs bobo lg ampe skrg.pngen epon2 org..tapi..ga tau epon sapa.smuanya kyaknya ngeboringin:DpdhL kmren bru beli international calling card 2 biji! nah Lo..gw ga ngirit lagi:D<br />pngen sms2 or..tp ga tau mo sms sapa..smuanya ngeboringin:D nah Lo...<br />pdhl kmren bru isi pulsa penuhin ampe stok bulan juni:D hueheueheu<br /> skrg..lagi dengerin lgnya rossa...aku bukan untukmu..<br />ga nyambung ama ati..tp..ttp bikin keki..<br />bosen ma otak gw..yg isinya diya muluw..wew..pdhl ga tau diyanya gmn ma gw..wewww<br />lg nyoba ngilangin diya dr ati gw:(...<br />so haard....but...yeaah....maybe its the rite way...bwad gw bs njlani hari kyak biasa lagi....<br />oh..gosh....im dying...<br />cb..skrg dpt gebetaan:D hueheueheu...<br />syg ga da yg nyangkut di ati skrg....<br />oh gosh...im waiting 4 samwan 2 repair my wings..hikz...<br />mellow mampus ga seh???:D<br />but yeaah.....im feel so much better rite now...<br />haruskah ku men deny diya dr pikiran gw????<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111060332697293126?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110602602144641182005-03-11T10:01:00.014+07:002005-03-12T11:43:22.146+07:00I never could imagine, life without you From the moment you walked into my worldNever knew how long a loving flame could burnBut losing you has forced me to learnThat we can’t change the way we feel insideAnd every try at love never turns out rightWe both know it’s better if we just let it goSo let’s have<br />One last kissOne last touchOne last tender moment between usOne last danceTo our first songWhile pretending there’s nothing wrongLet’s stay here for a while andCherish every moment we’re in denialWe both knowIt’s better if we just let it go<br />Every time I try to take a stand at allI see your face again and I fallIn the middle of the night there’s the scent of a roseThe smell of your perfume I supposeBut we can’t change the way we feel insideAnd every try at love never turns out rightWe both know it’s better if we just let it goSo let’s haveChorusBaby if we met each other under a different skyMaybe then things would be much better between you and IWe could always hold on to this one special thing we shareBut it would be too much for us to hearSo let’s haveChorusWe both knowIt’s better if we just let it go<br /><br />tyap kli gw denger ini..heheheheh jd inget ma aids:D aids muLuw yee dr kmrn:D<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111060260214464118?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110601905841286392005-03-11T10:01:00.013+07:002005-03-12T11:31:45.843+07:00How far back should I have to go? Tell me. Everything is so painfully vivid. The truth is, we couldn't understand each other, So I left and didn't look back Fall into a light sleep, it encompasses my very being I never carry out my promises So long ago, I threw away my brightness And like the light from the morning sun, it can never return. It lies beside this cold heart, frozen So completely mindless that it persists forever Numbly, I gather the remnants of my emotions, And searching for redemption, I... Fall into a light sleep, on a lonely night I'm beginning to learn the designs of sorrow The hiding away of your warm presence Makes me fear the overflowing darkness. Fall into a light sleep, it encompasses my very being I never carry out my promises So long ago, I threw away my brightness And like the light from the morning sun, it can never return<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111060190584128639?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110601013817581822005-03-11T10:01:00.012+07:002005-03-12T11:16:53.816+07:00duNNo wHy....... he sTiLL be the oNe i MissiNg lot..n lot....iN evry my single day..i miss u ids.... when all feel so empty without u..by my side idha<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111060101381758182?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110600913207880222005-03-11T10:01:00.011+07:002005-03-12T11:15:13.210+07:00Where are you Ids in this raiNy N coLd day? I know the answer to that!!! Right here, in my heart.YeaaH you are staYed in My heart! I locked you, and I have thrown the key, and only you can enter my heart any time you wish. Any time.iDs..., you don't even have to knock. It is your home, my heart is where you belong for eternity. So, wHeN ur Life turn upside down..wheN u need to rest ..wheN u need some place to stay 2 make u feel rigth again..welcome,iDs... welcome and get comfortable. Welcome home in my heart. I love you idHa.. wHen i woke up n all feel so empty<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111060091320788022?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110600841014422382005-03-11T10:01:00.010+07:002005-03-12T11:14:01.016+07:00im tryin'2 stand on my feet again... without never look back..without...rememberinG..what i've done.. and what they've done 2 me... i never LooK back beCoZ... some things are better left unknown. i don't know if the road behind me where i came from has change.. i very much want to know but at the same time i contradict myself. .. i fear to look back. but i took the courage to walk out. divert the direction of my life. don't need to try, this is part of me that i cannot explain and you cannot understand. i cannot make you understand.... because sometimes i don't understand why is it this way ,and becoz u dont want 2 try to understand me coz u though u cant also understand your self.... but at least i know what i have to do about it. don't expect anyone to understand what its written in the blog, some things are meant to be felt not understand.... people dont understand why i have to do all these for you.....why i have to stand 4 u when i know..all is not meant anything 4 u..when..all just..nothing 4 u...but i knew samting....yeah...what i've got 2 do in thiz recent month..is.. all because i care for you. no matter u never cares bout me...yeah..i do really cares bout u...coz u ever lift me up..when im feel down..that time..!coz u always brighter my day..that time..thankfuL??? yeah may be.. sometimes i get so tired that i also ask myself "why am i doing all these?" Just as much as i want to help you,though i canT n never cant help u..but i would try..n then.. i want a life of my own too. i are a million for you.???i guess NoT!!!! and i dont want to fall out with you. never. what am i to do? im So LosTwheneva i wake up feeling like i want to hibernate and i cant. it becomes a drag you get it? i hate the feeling........ you said we dont put ourselves in your positions but the thing is wheneva we discuss abt stuff we take you into considerations. but how come you think otherwise? you want us to talk to you but we dont have the guts all because you tend to show your unhappiness and mistaken our thots as if we are selfish. is it becus its not obvious enough or what? how come you think ThaT Im LikeLy UniMportaNt?? though...we have so many day 2 be with..share Love..share joy..sadness... why? iM tryiN 2 uNderstand...buT... i dont understand. Enlighten me.~ IdHa 02 feB 05 WheN i caNt BreatHE EASY.....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111060084101442238?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110600723632011372005-03-11T10:01:00.009+07:002005-03-12T11:12:03.633+07:00thiz day..my heart has broke..agaiN! i hate 2 found my self cryin alone @ de corner of my room..!staring @ de computer..copyin all uR text that u wrote in our conversation bout us just now.....4 a thousand times..feel so bad!You Leave me again anyway without giVe me Time 2 saY wHat i feeL...im so terrible..again..im cryin..one thing that i never done be4!!!cryin 4 de f@*k*N,s*cK*n..stupiD..melankoholic inside of my soul!yeah im cryin' 4 u..again!i hate 2 cryin..its makes me feel so weak..but..i cant handLe my self again..! i dont wanna make u know if im cryin 4 u @ 3.35am..rite after u leave me easily when i need 2 talk w/ u...when i need to know..bout de reason why u do thiz things 2 me?but i do really want u 2 know.."LOOK IDS..LOOK WHAT U'VE DONE!You reaLLY..reaLLy hurt Me eniwe...so hurt..!why dont u just kiLL me?? I wallow in my loneliness, an empty shell with a smile .A smile not worth anything, dont cherish what you dont own He was never mine, he will never be, all I have left is an empty me My heart has broken into a million pieces My tears have been wasted; all that is left is blood that I've tasted Wrists too hacked to find a new place to scorn !!!=>>Wish I never met you, wish I could forget you, and wish I could make u dissapear from my whole day!!! trough..i stiLL NeeD u!!!! I lay in my bed oozing crimson from my once vibrant orbs I shredded my skin to grate your name off my corps.I deleted aLL fiLe bouT You..wisH thaT it wiLL make yoU deleted from my heart I burned all the diary entries I had about you I watched them burn in the fire, and I saw you burn too Although you weren't in pain and this confused me I looked out the window, crawling to my balconey Observing the ground and the height from my apartment It was the only way to release my self from self pity In my bare feet I clambered up the terrace Stepped up on the bench and let the air flow through me Took one last breathe, and pushed off the edge I didn?t let out a scream I twisted and turned in my dream How could I ever die for a loser like you? You?re not worth it I opened my eyes and smiled All my wishes came true Burn in hell faggot I loved you .. iM dyiNgggggg!!!!. By IdHa.01FeBruaRy 05 WheN aLL waS FeLt sO eMptY.....<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111060072363201137?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110600628746994712005-03-11T10:01:00.008+07:002005-03-12T11:10:28.746+07:00ever had the feeling dat u hate someone so much u can go straight to him and kit and punch him? wel i'm the biggest warfreak ever born i love war but the irony is i never fight shouting with som1 well maybe because the biggest anger had never came to me but i made som1 angry and i know (i absolutely hate you) is a very strong word dat wil hurt meni ppol so much but i guess i hated him so much that i wanted to end my lyf. hey it's nit my fault i know hatred is lyk a curved blade that'll kill u from the inside but i can't help it i just don't lyk him. come on if ur so angry you'll say every thing to dat person but due to my lyf i found out a way to ease every pain i come up with. bcos i can tel at my age i grew so emotional that emotions had bin deleted of my vocabulary except for hatred. i have so much pryd dat no matter wat i wil kip my pride up. i know bcos of wat i did meni ppol wil h8 me so much and dats i'm bin w8ing for because i know it wuld be hrd to day gudby ...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111060062874699471?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110600539967462112005-03-11T10:01:00.007+07:002005-03-12T11:08:59.970+07:00<div align="left"><strong>yestrdaY was My bad daY eVer in thiz new yeaR!! 1 FeB 05..we MeT iN a fuckin suckiN chaT!! keY..LasT MonTh..jaN 02,i made deciTioN to BreaK up! coz....There Is sO much thinGs thaT i doNt reaLLy like froM him! he was Nice Guy for me... yaaaghhh..he jusT niCe in My eyes! but samtime....his BehavioR...his silently...just hurt me..:( im his GirLFreN rite??? so..wHy..he never LeT me..to be samwaN wHo caN be FreN to share witH?? i reaLLy waNna be a KindA a Good GirL freN for Him.. a girL freN wHo can be freN...a girlfreN wHo caN ..be samwan He wouLd 2 share With... but...he never gimme chance..to be Like kindA another couPles...! i do reaLLy Loves Him ready... jusT hiM!!! yeaaH.. !!!i jusT Love hiM in aLL my siNgle daY!! but Love not mean that i can accept aLL de thiNgs that he done to me! Noo....!!! fuuhh... im in bad MoooD!dont wanna write anything anymore... to be continueeddd..!!!!!!! idHa when i feel become a NumB!!</strong> </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111060053996746211?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110600360335998082005-03-11T10:01:00.006+07:002005-03-12T11:07:18.100+07:00<div align="left">dHa Mo coPiiN smua jurnaL idha yg dha buaT bulan2terahir...ini dha bikin saat dha masih jalan ma aids:)</div><div align="left"></div><div align="left">I can be a mystery cover up my heart Never show my emotion always keep you in the dark I could find funny line impress you for a while Hide the way that I'm feeling behind the smile But I don't wanna lie be something that I'm not And promise you the moon and stars but I swear to you my love Just as I am I give myself to you Just as I am I'll never make it through Cause you are the love I need The life inside of me So here I stand Just as I am I can try play it shy or charm you with my words Let you see through the sweetheart show me it would never work I could then not pretend and tell you how I feel Cause its a chance worth taking with a love so real Now I don't wanna lie be something that I'm not And promise you the moon and stars but I swear to you my love And we'll be together for always Cause true colours never lie You're my everything My life is in your hands So take me Just as I am....oh I.... I give myself to you And Just as I am....oh I.... I'll never make it through Cause you are the love I need The life inside of me So here I stand Just as I am.... yeah.... Give myself to my baby Never make it through... So here I stand Just as iam</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111060036033599808?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110514962759348462005-03-11T10:01:00.002+07:002005-03-11T11:22:42.760+07:00<div align="center">Berjuta pedih Tlah kurasakan Dalam pencarianku Yang tak pernah berakhir Ku tak tahu sampai kapan Dan ku mengenal Dia seorang Manusia sempurna Dia buka Mata ini Dari kegelapan Seperti bintang Ia bersinar Temani hariku yang kelam Seperti bintang Ia menjelma Mengisi senjaku yang sepi Aku yang dulu padam Tlah kutemukan </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111051496275934846?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110513860291281202005-03-11T10:01:00.001+07:002005-03-11T11:04:20.293+07:00<div align="center">yestedaY i made a DecitioN to erase aLL bout hiM froM MY minD! yeaH i dO..!! buT practicaLLy its so hard 4 me to deNy what i feeL inside! i m in Love with hiM.maybe its heard so weird! but yeaH..thats true!just 5 month......but its enough to make me feel fuLL of love! he's speciaL..very2 speciaL in my eyes! i just lov him so much!no maTteR howeVer,whaTever,wherever,whenever! i love the way he maKe me feeL.... i dUNno hiM closeLy....but im in love with hiM:) thats the truth! he drive me crazy.... but i love it.... sometimes..somepeople told me bout him... bout how he Loves me... bout....bout anything that can make me flyin high... sometimes its make me feel....really in love with him..:) but sometimes...i just feel there is nothing... he was not like that....he...wasn't Love me... yeah... maybe...its true... its absolutely..make me bad...! when i love samwan w/ my heart..why always there's no feedback? i want to deny my feeling.... but it's killin me softly... i love him ...still love him so much........ god...show me the way....... i dont want thiz feelin' killin me...:( </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111051386029128120?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110510283360067672005-03-11T10:01:00.000+07:002005-03-11T10:04:43.363+07:00<strong><span style="color:#3333ff;">thiz is My first journaL entry for my first blog:D </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#3333ff;">yeeaah....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#3333ff;">now..feel so bored! lonely felt like killing me softly</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#3333ff;">have no idea how to make all thiz things be right again...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#3333ff;">i need someone to repair my wings....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#3333ff;">before god take my breath...n take my souL...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#3333ff;">i need someone....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111051028336006767?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110692733759854622005-03-10T19:01:00.006+07:002005-03-13T12:45:33.770+07:00<strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">... you are my world and nothing can compare!</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> ill do whatever for you, for always, i promis, i swear!!<br />How did i ever fall so quickly </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">when at first i barely new you at all?</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> i guess its just fate for us</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> to always be together forever to have and to hold!!<br />ill stay true no matter how hard or long this road will take!! </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">->> i give you my word <<-<br />you are my friend</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"> my lover '</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">my heart..<br />my companion!! </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">dont ever change </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">i love you for who you are *** </span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">this is i wrote when im with him...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">when im still with him....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">how i loved him so much....</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">till now...</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">dont wanna hide what i feel..</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">without wax</span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"></span></strong><br /><strong><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;">idha</span></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111069273375985462?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110692478189176182005-03-10T19:01:00.005+07:002005-03-13T12:41:18.196+07:00<span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em>I never thought I'd fallen so deep</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em> 'til I realized you're the reason</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em> I can't sleep</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em> Always staring at the ceiling with nothing to do </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em>never fells to bring me thoughts of you<br />The way you laugh the way you breathe </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em>the way you smile beautifully </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em>I know now I've loved you since day one </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em>so its not like any of these feelings can be undone </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em>I wish you would push the wall away and see my love for you is here to stay</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em> Because of you I wear a smile constantly </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em>I want to show you my love grows endlessly </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em>Its you I want to hold in my arms and caress</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em> I can imagine no sweeterness </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em>I will wait forever if thats the case maybe then you'll see my hearts in the right place</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em> But for now I'm going to cry these lonely tears </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em>and hope its soon you're beside me calming my fears<br /> </em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em>without wax...</em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em></em></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;font-size:130%;color:#006600;"><em>idha</em></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111069247818917618?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110692224306577322005-03-10T19:01:00.004+07:002005-03-13T12:37:04.313+07:00<span style="font-family:georgia;color:#990000;"><strong>if i had one ability...</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#990000;"><strong>it would be for you to see yourself the way<br />that i see you...</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#990000;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#990000;"><strong>so you would know how special you really are to me..<br />i may not get to see you as often as i'd like...</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#990000;"><strong>i mite not be able to hold you every nite,<br />but no matter what i do,i think its true that i'm in luv with you.. </strong></span><br /><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#990000;"><strong>some people are afraid to fall in love...</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#990000;"><strong>i was...because i've been hurt so much<br />in the past, but then you came and changed it just like that...<br />theres so many people talkin about different things...<br />i dont know what to think..<br />i know how you are...<br />i dont think you would do what they've been saying...<br />some people say...that when you are in luv the whole world<br />disappears...so have no fear, because the only thing that should matter<br />iz you and me... </strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#990000;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#990000;"><strong>september.08,2004</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#990000;"><strong>for aids..</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#990000;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#990000;"><strong>without wax</strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#990000;"><strong></strong></span><br /><span style="font-family:georgia;color:#990000;"><strong>idha</strong></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111069222430657732?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110691963476534522005-03-10T19:01:00.003+07:002005-03-13T12:32:43.486+07:00<em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">cut myself;</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;"> wanting to die,</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;"> no more do I want to cry. </span></em><br /><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">Every night, </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">I lie awake,</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;"> want to change, </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">not to be fake.</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;"> It feels like no one cares about me,</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;"> Just want to die, </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">don't want to be alive. </span></em><br /><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">Sadness is always in my heart,</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;"> just want to end and die, </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">just want to start over. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">I want to be accepted for who I am, </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">I wish someone out there could understand. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">I ask myself ýWhen will death come upon meý </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">I just want to jump,</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;"> jump off dramatically. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">im feel all just so empty.....</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">i dont want to be alone...</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">i need samwan to wipe off my tears..n save me from fears.....</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">dont let me die..easily....</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">without wax</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;"></span></em><br /><em><span style="font-size:130%;color:#cc0000;">idha<br /> </span></em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111069196347653452?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110691713084757262005-03-10T19:01:00.002+07:002005-03-13T12:28:33.093+07:00<strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">Lonely times are lonely tears, </span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">so today i made a vow,</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;"> i've stopped searching, </span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">for the love i could never find... </span></em></strong><br /><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">The dreams have gone,</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;"> but life is real,</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;"> sailing by my side is my regret,</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;"> but today i said, i don't want life like that no more... </span></em></strong><br /><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">I told my head to find a home, </span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">for all the hurt and pain, </span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">all the sorrow and shame, </span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">for all the regrets of regret,</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;"> told my head its time to let go...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;"><br />I decided today, that on me i can depend, </span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">and that love somehow, </span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">could never be a part of me... </span></em></strong><br /><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">Life without love can be lonely tears, </span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">but life with love the tears only seem to overflow, </span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">leaving a bitter pain i no longer have space for... </span></em></strong><br /><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">Tired of the fight, </span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">the days i cannot see light, </span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">the friends that are enemies, </span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">the trust gone and only me and my pain...<br />Life on your own, is the safest place, </span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">the warmest, the one i can trust not to inflict pain or hurt...<br />I can laugh at my empty jokes, </span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">cry at my loneliness,</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;"> lose myself in work, </span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">and smile without hurt...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">without wax...</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="color:#000099;">idha </span></em></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111069171308475726?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110675712231993152005-03-10T19:01:00.001+07:002005-03-13T08:01:52.236+07:00<em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">i m afraid of darkness</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"> i m afraid ofbeing left alone</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"> i m afraid of falling deeply down </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">i m afraid of beaing neglected i m afraid of loneliness</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">i m afraid of my cold tear</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">s i m afraid of the pain which hurts inside of me</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">i m afraid of the day u say goodbye to me</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"> i m afraid of being ignored </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">i m afraid of my madness</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"> i m afraid of my crazy feelings</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"> i m afraid of my dreams</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"> i m afraid of my words</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"> i m afraid of darkness inside me</span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;"> i m afraid ofthe day of being left alone in this fake world.. </span></em><br /><em><span style="font-family:lucida grande;">im afraid....</span></em><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111067571223199315?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11367756.post-1110675474917621032005-03-10T19:01:00.000+07:002005-03-13T07:57:54.920+07:00<strong><em><span style="font-family:courier new;color:#cc0000;">waNna say thx yu..xiexie..ama ardiz dan ryu</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="font-family:Courier New;color:#cc0000;">dua sejoLi yg bukan sejoli hueheuheheue</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="font-family:Courier New;color:#cc0000;">yg udah mbuwat my dreams bwad bikin new blog </span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="font-family:Courier New;color:#cc0000;">comes true...;)muaacchhh bebi,bani,switi..;D</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="font-family:Courier New;color:#cc0000;">duNno how to thanks..:)i love yu...ryu,diz..:)</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="font-family:Courier New;color:#cc0000;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="font-family:Courier New;color:#cc0000;">without wax</span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="font-family:Courier New;color:#cc0000;"></span></em></strong><br /><strong><em><span style="font-family:Courier New;color:#cc0000;">idha</span></em></strong><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/11367756-111067547491762103?l=dhabadlover.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>aNgeLwiThBroKenWiNgshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12664664555597919932noreply@blogger.com0